i tremble and search for the words that hide inside me an di wish i could wake from this nightmare and have someone to call my own..im still hurt and ive tryed so hard to ignore it and tell myslef it will be okay.. you make a mess of me and i cant do anything about it i try so hard not to cry and hold it in but we both know thats not me...i bare the sight of you i go out and try to have fun..i have boys come on to me nothing new but i wont let them even have a chance whats wrong with me i cant do this .today is my weakest day of all and i want it all to go away.. i cry becuz i miss you.. im breakin down and wishing for you to pick me up like you always use to do..