I failed a Sociology test today. Oh well. *shrug* I'm not as smart as I was in high school or I'm bored... Tonight I watched "Friends". I'm not big on that show but it's the "countdown to the end" and I can't resist a "countdown to the end". In some ways I feel like my life is a "countdown to the end". Is it wrong to feel like your going to die a premature death? I live in this little dorm room with a TV and a frig and that is my life. Going to class and coming back and I wonder why I'm slightly depressed. This summer I'm going to work really hard and save up for a car maybe... or get a boyfriend with a car... Would that work? I put way too much importance on having a boyfriend. Can't I be "whole" without a guy? I'm constantly looking for that person who will complete me. I'm not complete and that's my own fault. I've made a point not to be complete because I've always felt like a guy gets intimidated by a girl who knows what she's doing. But obviously that isn't the case because I haven't met the person I'm made for with that strategy. Valentine's Day is Saturday...I will admit that I hate this holiday solely because I have no one to share it with. I'll spend the day watching cheesey movies and eating candy that I had to buy for myself. I'm truely pitiful.