I dunno, I feel sorta down, maybe its just the song. I had that appointment with the psychiatrist yesterday, it wasn't too bad. Gonna see him again in a few weeks. I feel bad about costing mum all this money. My moods keep fluctuating, from depressed to totally hyper. Maybe I'm manic-depressive. I'd say its quite probable, but no one else would agree. No one else knows me. It struck me that this is the only place I'm really honest sometimes. That's sad. the butterflys are passive aggresive and put their problems on the shelf but they’re beautiful he’ll realize the only thing thats real are the kids that kid themselves and the demise of the beautiful what is beautiful?