I'm over it, I think. I was a while ago, but I don't know. But right now I feel fucking awful. Nothing seems right or real. Sure, nothing's seemed real for a long time but sometimes I get this feeling that something or everything isn't right, it's just wrong. Just wrong and I cant fix it. I've had that feeling all night. I got inexplicably tired an hour or so ago. I only want to talk to one person because everyone else pisses me off or depressed me. I dont want to be me any more, I want to be real, I want to be different. That's all I can explain.