The guy closest to me, the only one who knows my secret, his girlfriend pashed another guy last night and he, the most passive guy In the world, went and kicked in the guy’s head who she pashed. He has a very big influence on my life, but I’ve never really liked his girlfriend. He also told me he used to like me at one point. I don’t know what to do. A couple of friends of mine went to a party last night and had sex with guys they didn’t know. I don’t know why, but I think it may have been partially my fault with leigha because of things i may have said/done to her. Also currently fighting with one of my best friends. I don’t know why. I have no idea who to take to my formal. I don’t have anyone. I like a guy at work, who doesn’t even know me and I’ve only talked to him twice. The guy who I’ve liked for the past 8 months, the one in all my updates, who I go psycho over. I thought he hated me. turns out he may not. He seems interested. Fuck this world’s fucked up. Really fucked up. But I’m not gonna do it again. I’m not gonna hurt myself just because this world’s too fucked up for me to handle. I wrote that last night, and guess what. I didn't hurt myself. That makes me happy. Also, that party that my closest guy friend went to, I've been hearing about it and apparently it was really fucked up. Everyone hooked up with everyone and got into fights and everyone broke up afterwards. Sorta glad I didn't go.