I feel horrible. I feel hurt. It's a hurtful, horrible thing when the person who means the world to you tells you that they don't care about you at all. It's only just hit home though. There has been so many examples, and I've been so fucked up because of him. I'm so sick of it. We fight so much though. He says such bad things when we fight, and then afterwards he just expects everything to be ok. Oh I'm crying. I know what you're all thinking; he's not worth this, and I know it but I still think of him all the time. For almost a year now. Gosh. A year ago I was completely in love with a guy, the first guy I ever really felt something for... when that broke down and i broke down, this guy was there. And he's still here. But he hurts a lot more now.