I'm so fucking god damn lonely. So damn alone and hurt... but as if you would. As if you'd turn to drugs. As if you go crying to a doctor, thats weak. As if you'd think you're better than me... as if you'd just help the hurt cycle go around and around even though you know what it feels like. As if you'd be that immature, that arrogant, that SELFISH. SO FUCKING SELFISH. WHY ARE THEY ALL SO FUCKING SELFISH? They're all stupid. Just fucking stupid. I want them to know it but they can't without me hurting them and I'm not willing to do that. As if I'd have the confidence anyway. I dont want them. I thought I was like them, but I'm better... I think I'm better. I'm incapable of loving myself and they al love themselves too much. I was right about not trusting him. Just like I'm right about them all. I don't need them, they just made me cry anyway... good job, Bates, good job.