For the past 4 1/2 months, I've been dating this guy named Captain Kirk. Okay, that isn't his real name, but as far as you know it is. Kirk went to school with me when I was 15, but I had no idea who he was. I just knew him as the semi-cute kid that shaved horns in his hair. I didn't even know his name or care to. Then, when I was 16, I got a job at a little grungy grocery store with my best friend, who we will call Drama Queen (But I love her). She told me that she really liked Kirk, and she has for years. I'd give her advice on how to get his attention, and I'd giggle and whisper with her. Then, he started coming into the store all the time. She would get so excited. When I was 17, Kirk moved into Drama's with her brother. I have never heard that girl talk about a guy so much. So you could imagine how bad I felt when he confessed he was into me ever since I was 14. Drama was hurt, but she tried not to show it. That's why I didn't believe her when she said she didn't care and to go out with him if I wanted to. i didn't talk to him much, because I didn't want to hurt her even more. 6 monthes passed before I told her I cared about him. She seemed to take it pretty well, but I was paranoid about the whole situation. I hated seeing the hurt on Kirk's face all the time. It started making me think he was something great though, because who would hold on to someone that he had a very unlikely chance of getting. Plus, I was with Stank. The guy I was dating all through high school. Now that boy put me through some shit. I was in love though, and extremely nieve. There would be girls over his house all the time, He never called me when he said he would, drinking and drugs was his whole life, and I had that job at the grocery store so he wouldn't starve. No 16 year old girl should have to go through that at all. He found a poem I wrote about Kirk, but I lied through my teeth about it. So in Dec. 2004 I dropped when he called tripping, because I was chilling with my friends. New year's came and that meant a party at Drama's. kirk was there of course. I had a long talk with Drama about how I felt about him, and she seemed to understand. She told me to go for it. He asked me out that night, and I said yes after explaining the situation. Drama was still weird at first, and we had to deal with Stank for a little while. It seems good now though. Drama started talking to Stank. If I told you it didn't bother me, I'd be lying. I guess she got me back though. Kirk is an awesome guy, and for once I'm happy. I still have the lovephobia a little bit. I just want to run and hide, so I don't get hurt. I love Kirk more then anything in the world though, and that's what scares me. He treats me like I'm the center of the universe. All the trouble was definitely worth it.