I guess, I'm starting a new page of my life. Me and Kirk are done for good. The pain is ripping me into pieces, but I have to be strong for my baby. Kirk has been doing nothing but lying, drinking, and doing drugs for the past two weeks. He's blown me off twice, and ever has been sneaking people into his house if he even comes home. He's been lying to me about all this stuff. The wosrt part is he did cheat on me. He was all drunk last night and admitted it to one of my friends to her face. So I told him to act like he has been 'LIKE ME AND THIS BABY DOESN'T EXIST.' It takes a really cold hearted motherfucker to cheat on his 6 mth. pregnant girlfriend and have no remorse. I'm realizing more and more about who he really is, and I hate it. He told me he was scared about the baby coming and blah blah blah. The only thing he's scared of is losing his freedom, not about how we were gonna take care of this baby. I wish I had a chose. I know I have responsiblities, and I'm taking care of my business. I'm happy about this baby, and I love it already. I would give anything up for it(even my freedom)without a second thought. I just don't understand how Kirk could be such a horrible person and not feel the same way. I'm glad I know how bad he is now, instead, of after the baby came.