Saturday, I went to my first strip-club for, my friend, CeeCee's bachlorette party. I had my own little image of a male strip-club. My thoughts were that they would come out dressed like a cop, cowboy, or something, get naked (except for the little thong), and shake some ass for some dollars in thier g-string. I WAS SO WRONG! This club was grimmy. I must have missed the sign outside that said "Full contact: We are allowed to kiss, grab, spank, rub, ect." It was insane. I was shocked when I saw them slapping girls in the face with thier dick, but I was fuckin' disguised when I saw them lick a girl's dirty crouch. I probably would have liked this place if I wasn't five monthes pregnant and was single. I guess, it's just not my scene anymore. Kirk told me to go, but he's all weird about it now. Just like a guy, huh? I think he thought I let those guys do stuff to me. Yeah right! I didn't wanna breath, because I was scared I'd get an STD through the air (Ha). Don't get me wrong. It was funny watchin' these fools dance around and embarrassing all these girls. There was even an 80 year old woman! I got pictures of her. That was hilarious shit. I do think that stuff is degrating though (even though, they make mad money). Anyway, life beyond the naked beef cakes...Drama had her baby. SOOO CUTE! She's going through prenatal depression so bad though. They have her on these zombie pills that just make it worse. Here's what I think about her situation, her whole life she was locked up in her house. She wasn't allowed to go out and do crazy shit like most kids were until she was 18. A couple monthes after that she got pregnant, and the fun stopped again for a long time. Now, she wants to run around and have fun again, btu she has a baby. Crack doesn't help. He doesn't care. He'll go party and leave her alone with the baby everyday. Sad story, but lifes shitty so get some boots. She has to realize her life didn't stop, because she doesn't need to worry about going out all the time. There's more important things. She's not a bad mommy though. The undate on me and Kirk is we are completely stressed out. He has a job at a farm, paying off all his fines, and going to get his GED. It's a start, so I'm proud of him. He's not allowed at my house anymore, because him and my sister got into it. Which is bullshit. My family is stressing us out a lot. They breath down Kirk's back all the time about getting his shit together, even though, he's trying hard. My sister doesn't even really talk to me anymore, because she's getting really miserable and ignorant. I hate that. It hurts my feelings that she can treat me like I'm nothing, just another person she knows. Me and Kirk have been srguing a lot too. I'm always mad and he's alway a basket-case. There's just a lot of work we have to do before this baby comes, and we're worried.