Okay, I don't regret my decision to get back with Kirk, because I do love him. The problem is everything is getting messed up just like it always did. For the first week I had to deal with Kirk getting off his coke binge and going through withdrawl. It was soooo bad. Then, he lost his job two days ago, because he couldn't find a ride. It wasn't his fault, but still. Then yesterday I found out he's going to be going to jail any day now, because while we were broke up he wasn't paying his fine or going to see his P.O. at all. Great, huh? I feel bad, because I know he's trying to do better, but all this keeps happening. On the other hand, I want to beat the fuck out of him, because he would have had the money to pay his fine if he didn't spend so much damn money on coke. He would have had it to get a car, so he could have got to work and his P.O. meetings. He started trying to late, and it pisses me off. To make it worse, my dad lost his job, so my families going to be moving soon. I have nowhere to go except my sister's and her husband doesn't even let Kirk anywhere around me when he has say in it. The plan of me and Kirk getting a place and actually starting a life is nothing but a big pile of shit now. Okay, he stopped doing coke, and tries to see me more, and blah blah blah. But he's still in the process of crawling out of the million foot deep hole he dug himself when I wasn't around. I hate this. I remember why I was so unhappy before. This is seriously his last change though, and I told him use it as he will. But I might as well forget about our plans to get shit straight for a long time.