Graduation is sneaking up on me real quick, and I have to figure out what the hell I'm going to do. If it was all up to me, I'd mooch off my parents and be a bum for the rest of my life. That's not how it works though. I have to get a good job so I can go to college to get a better job. JOB JOB JOB!!! My parents are being wierd about all this to. They are not helping me as much as they should. I'm trying to get my license, so I can get a job. But my parents don't teach me how to drive. I've had my permit for 2yrs. for God's sake. Fuck it, I'll do it myself like I have to do everything else. I'm going to the Community College, because that's all I can afford. I've been accepted, but I've had no urge to call for my placement test. It might even be to late which would suck real bad. And again, my parents aren't helping me out with college either, but they "want me to go more then anything." I'm going to be a nurse, not because I want to be a nurse, but I will always have a job that pays mad loot. I know that ain't the way to go, but whatever. I'm getting a job at an old folks home in like a month, so it looks good when I go to get a nursing job. I have had no motivation to do anything about my future so far. It scares me that I have to grow up, and I want to postpone it for as long as possible. I'm afraid that it's to late to do what I have to do though too. I have to do all this, and it's stressing me out. I can't even sleep anymore. This has been the worst year of my life. There has been so much drama, and I'm just all out of motivation. I think my brain just needs a little jump start. Plus, I have the stress from friends, family, and even Captain Kirk. I don't even wanna do anything about them either, so I've noticed I don't talk as much anymore. I just want to chill in my room and vegetate. I'm going insane, and I wish I could just stop procrastinating everthing, and get through it all.