I feel like a beggar Trying to find her way Waking up every morning Hoping for a brighter day No one shows her love They look but just walk by She tries to say everythings okay But deep down she knows it's a lie She's been so beaten and misused Tears no longer know her cheeks Watching all the happy people smile That smile is all she seeks She wants help out of the dark But no one cares that much Never asking for anything Just a loved one's touch Everyone is so judgemental They just can't see The caring beautiful person She wants to be This year, I've realized more about cruel people then ever before. The cruelest of these people aren't those girls that you hate in school or the strangers that make fun of you going down the street, the people you care about the most are the one's that can really scorn you. It's like the saying "How come the only people that can dry your tears are the one's that make you cry." What hurts worse, your parents or a stranger calling you a "fat ass loser." I realized that most of my friends that I thought were as true as they come didn't come so true in actuality. I realized that my parents won't be there whenever I need them, and that having a boyfriend doesn't always mean having a boyfriend doesn't mean a soulmate that would show unconditional love at all times. I guess my sugar coated world just melted. In the end, I have no one but myself. The lessons of growing up sux real bad! In the end, the beggar is stronger then the happy people though. You could but the beggar in a happy person's life and he/she would live well. Put a happy person in a beegar's position and they would never last.