I guess you can say I'm alone now. Well, there's people all around me, but I feel, therefore, I am alone. Me and Bright broke up, because I couldn't drag him down to my level anymore. He says he loves me, and he's still gonna be around. We'll see how long that lasts though. I didn't think it was fare to keep dragging him along in my quest to get over Kirk. He's to good for that. I've been seeing Kirk a little bit, and talking about getting back together and making things work this time. I love Kirk to death, but it's not the same. I feel like I'm holding on to him for dear life in the mix of a hurricane. It feels like it's time to let go, but I can't. I love him to much. Poor Bright! He's persistant, but not successful. I care about him, and I would be crushed if he wasn't around. I even found myself getting jealous, because he is a cutie, so of course, girls like him. I can't be selfish though. I made a decision to let him go, so I no longer have any say in that department. Maybe I did start to fall in love with Bright and got scared. I don't know. Nothings really different between me and Kirk in the sense of how he acts of course. We are still always fighting. How come I know that Bright is better for me, but I keep dragging this on? How could my mind win against my emotions? I guess the fact is I am conquered and condemned by Kirk! I found out the whole pedifile thing was just a shit load of people who don't like me talking shit to start problems too. Which it did. Kirk didn't screw that little girl, and good, because I would have never been able to look at him again.