sometimes i wish that it would just go that far and then be dropped in the same fashion only vice versa. and i hope so badly that this would happen sometimes, and then i realize that thats a really terrible thing to hope for, but, what can i say..i can be a vindictive person. and for some reason those little things still bother me...clymbal buddy knows what i'm talking about. and i know we joke, but some of them genuinely bother me and its so weird... but i guess when you lose something strong and important to you, it burns for a little while. and maybe i'll never be able to deal with that one thing, but that's ok i guess. nothing lasts forever... and i know i'm writing in riddles guys, but i'm just trying to vent and keep my diary public at the same time. soon i think i'm gonna make it friends only. lol