he could've wrote this song for me...it seems like something he would want to say. because it could practically be about me standing in the way you know. because i gues i kinda was. and i'm better now. sometimes anyway... why must you say i've made a mess of things i won't believe it tonight feels right like i'm dancing on air i'll make it right i'll make it right pull over to the station to fill up on fuel what will i do? sometimes i drive or ride with my eyes closed tight cause if the skyline looks this way then i don't wanna sleep tonight never give up always seeking light we must always try try with all our might + that song is soo pretty haha that was a self reflective moment... and i changed this diary up a bit today. i made the background a beach in Melbourne, Australia, and i actually put a link in my info. a little crazy, and i may have to change that... but i guess i felt proud because i thought the layout looked pretty again? whatever. lol i need a place for my deep thoughts again, but for now this will do. and for some random mini-poems i've brainstormed over the last few days... (they're all separated by the dotted lines): ------------------------ smiles pressed so heavy against your pretty lips and poetry is beautiful so let me breathe you in ------------------------- and hold your head in your hands once again once again hear it, do you hear it? can't you hear the melody playing 'cross my heart so sing it back sing it back, loud as you can maybe i'll sing too and we'll know, we'll get it right this time -------------------------- and the scar that he left was a little bit deeper they all get deeper with time didn't know how close, closer than most now i'm tracing the spacing he dug in the ground of my mind do i wish you almost near me how much hurt will this one be so turn me blue and wrap me round you i'm ready to love this time ----------------------------- the second one was actually in a different sd entry, so i just reposted..lol i had a few more but their in my little poem booky thing and i'm too lazy to go get them. another one was actually on a tissue in my room, but my mom threw it out :( i think it was pretty good too...oh well lol i think they pretty much sum up what i've been thinking lately. it's getting harder. well no, not much harder than it was at first, but it got easy for awhile. haha i don't think anyone knows what the heck i'm talking about. oh well.... i'm on fire and now i think i'm ready to bust a move check it out i'm rocking steady to the beat in my head it goes oh oh oh... ...i'd rather waste our time together yeah 'cause we can get down ^cool song yeah the musical is going well the cast party should be fun i spose, and i definately still have to pay heathy...heehee yeah so all these cool bands have been hanging out in my mp3 player lately, now since i found the cord...lol northstar, motion city soundtrack, the rocket summer, hot hot heat, weezer, something corporateeeeee, hellogoodbye, deep blue something, etc etc. fun fun fun stufffff under razor wrists lie the gorgeous words that have put him under my skin and i'm alone again and maybe i'll try this time for my friends, tonight is for all of them someday i'll make you mine someday... see northstar is hot...lol