listening to piano music makes me sad and happy at the same time. the hiss of the air passing through the microphone in the background is like the hiss of life always passing us by. and the notes hit so deep in your heart, especially the high and low notes. and all the notes in between. it's all so pretty... i wish they had ponderous as a mood because that's kind of what i am right now. i wonder if he's not good enough for me? that's never happened legitimately before...