everyone has been begging me to write something in here, but it's too superficial to write about my day, who I'm in love with, what's going on in school. That's not what you put in a diary. You put things you really THINK. and I haven't done much of that lately. well, that's not entirely true. I've been thinking about flaws of my personality, humanity, the world as a whole. no one likes to read about flaws, so I just won't write them. sometimes I wish my thoughts didn't jump around all over the place because it makes writing them out really hard. and explaining how I come to conclusions about things is hard as well. then when someone is like, "you say you theorize about stuff, well what do you think about?" and I'm just like uh...I don't really know. even though I DO I just don't know what to say because I can't even remember how I thought of what I did. Rich is right, I really need to write in a real diary. ah secrets secrets. I feel like lately I have so many things on my mind that I can't tell anyone, but then I confide in somebody and it's all good again. I've been talking to people I normally don't talk to lately too. it's sort of cool. hey I guess I did have some stuff to write.. there's so much more but I just can't put it into words on a website, even if sitdiary like just became the cool thing to do. I remember when me, Jen, and Ashleigh started sitdiarys to stalk people. hahahah and now it's popular. we are so cool. haha