well as usual things are crappy as all get out which is nothing new... daddy's still out of work with no job yet. i'm still feeling upset and just not myself right now. mama really pissing me off with all her crap... she just makes me so mad and upset and puts me down and just lowers my self esteem and any hope i had left which wasn't much to begin with. she dosen't know what she does to me and it's just not cool. the things she says about me, my boyfriend, how she feels about things and just oh lord...it's just all to much and i'm tired and fedup with all of this with her...god she just makes me mad and.....i just have no words for her and what she does. ....maybe on a good foot tho... i'm goin to spend the weekend with lilly for the 4th of july and get away from the house and my messed up family members for once this summer... i can't ever get away from them or have fun with anyone...which i have good times with troy but that's probably ended until school starts back or close to it... i'm tired of asking things to do with troy or anyone and them turning down what i say or just whatever they have to say to it... well sorrie for all of the complaining and whatnot. i'll go now and be back whenever i guess... maybe *bte (yet again, not so bettethanever)