well, i haven't been around in a while b/c i've been having some trouble at the house and in my life right now. i mean, things are pretty bad right now. the other weekend my mom lost control of herself but i won't go into to much detail on that one. not everyone needs to know all that but it's been hard with her and now she's sucking up to me with all this i love you crap and the other day she told me she wanted to apologize for what happened but she can't if she doesn't know what happened so everything that went down she doesn't even remember... yeah that's great mother... i love you too...right. but things with my dad are the same. we get along and we don't. but now i can't use the phone or go anywhere or see anybody and not my b/f either. i'm surprised i can even go to school. oh, i can't go outside by myself either b/c they think i'll run away... isn't that something...lol ....well, things with my b/f. umm, i guess things are alright. i mean, i feel fine about us and getting to talk to him the other day and today was good for me and we just got done fussing with each other when all this happened so we didn't really agree on things but i mean, with us being apart and not talking we've forgotten about all the crap we were fussing about. i mean. it doesn't matter compared to the stuff now. i just care about getting to see him or talk to him right now so i'm feeling fine about us. i just want him to know i'm here and that i need him now more than ever and i only want him... we might be apart but were connected in so many ways. and i just love him so much and i never wanna be without him. yup yup, that's pretty much it for me. stuck in the hell hole here with the devil and his wife...lol sorrie. oh yeah, dad's still jobless so if he doesn't fine something soon we'll lose the van and our house so i'm just waiting on that one. it a give me an excuse to leave the house ans get away from them and then maybe i'll be able to call my baby and possibly see him a couple times or something. i'm just waiting on it tho. well, i should probably go so i don't get in trouble and maybe i'll be back to let you know something. well, hope everyone's doing better than me. talk at ya later. love ya baby, thinking about you like crazy... bye.... ¤lost & broken¤