... well, where to start on this one... i guess i'll start at the beginning...duh. last night at about 11:00, i was sitting in my room feeling very strangely and a song came on the radio that just didn't help my mood... you all know how that can be. well, this feeling i had, i haven't had in a while but when i used to have it i would call my best friend chelsea and we'd just talk and laugh and have a good ol time, no matter what time of day or night it was... well for those of you who don't know me and chelsea haven't been on good terms lately and so this is an unusual thing i did... well, when the feelings hit me it just brought back memories and i thought who would i usually call when i feel like this... chelsea. so, i picked up the phone thinking should i call her, sylvia's gonna bless us out, is she asleep, what am i gonna say, and all kinds of things... but i called anyway and i almost hung up after the first ring but i didn't. then chelsea answered the phone and at first it was strange for us to be talking and all but we got into talking about all kinds of things and talked for about an hour. ... like i said earlier, i'm not exactly sure why it hit me to call her but i guess the main thing is b/c i miss her and wish we could just be friends again and lately things have just been happening and things poping up about her or something that related to her or us i guess... but it made me feel somewhat better to hear her voice and us laugh and talk again. and even when she answered the phone and it came to her as a surprise that i was calling it made me happy b/c she sounded all sad or upset or tired or something when she answered the phone but when i said hey her voice just changed and she was like oh hey and she sounded happy and that made me feel good for calling... ... well, just so happens if you read this chelsea i just want to say it was good talking to you the other night and i miss ya. and i'm not sure how bad or maybe good things are with jay but whatever it is i'm sure you'll make the right decision on what you do and i'm sure things will get better for ya... and just to let you know you can call me even if you can't talk about some things to me at least you have someone there to talk to... love ya...toodles... *bte