sugar were going down swinging... hey hey sorrie about that. yeah you can tell i'm doing so much better.:-D yeah, well i guess i better start with what happened with me and troy. well, that monday i went and saw troy at work after school and gave him a poem that i wrote and i was so nervous. i had butterflies in my stomach and i was shaking and yeah i was a wreak. but it was really good to see him. well, then i found out some stuff that happened at a party he went to and it wasn't good so i came home and was franticly calling some one that wes there and i heard someone pull up in the yard but i didn't think anything about it cuz i've been hoping troy would pull up and it's always a car going down the road so didn't think about it but i was like that sounded too close so i look ed outside and troy was sitting outside in the car and i asked my mom if she knew why he was here and she said no didn't know he was coming over. well, i found out he got off work early and decided to come over. he kept saying he was sorrie about everything and i wanted to be mad at him so bad but the only thing i could do was smile and cry b/c he was there in my yard and holding me. it was crazy. well, we talked about a lot and he took me out to dinner that night. pizzavilla, yummie. and he bought me a rose, long story there, and it was just great. we hung out at the mall for a bit and then we came back to my house and it was just great and now things are so much better. i feel that troy's changed a bit but not in a bad or drastic way but it's good. not only did he surprise me that night but then wednesday i went to see him at work and he left early again and so i rushed home to talk to him and what do you know he's sitting at my house again. i was like man, i like this. i had to go to a viewing for a friend of ours that passed away and he wanted to be there for me so i liked that. and then the rest of the week i saw him thursday cuz he was off, friday i was in town with some friends and then saturday he was off again so i spent the day at his house and in town and it was great. so yes things are better and i'm so happy now. and i really think that this may have been good for us cuz troy seems a little different and it makes us appreciate each other more and our time together too so it may not have been good a week ago but it is now. so that's all that... now on to other things at the moment... let's see, well like i said a friend of mine has passed away. my buddy nate is back home from south dakota. he came back just the other day so that's great. i've missed him a good bit. umm, my aunt has been having trouble with her health and she just had her surgery yesterday and it's not cancer thank god, it was only a syst and they didn't have to take out to much so things are good there... sucks tho cuz she's gonna be in the hospital through thanksgiving but at least she's not gonna be sick anymore so i guess it's worth it. wow, i just opened a pickle jar for my mom, anyways. well, i've had quite a few surprises, good and bad, the past week so yeah but i'm good now. i'm just so happy that things are back to normal with me and troy and i hope it stays this way and it doesn't happen again even with the college stuff. well, that's enough for now and i'm on thanksgiving break so i'll be back and i'm sure i'll have something to write about and if i'm not back tomorrow *HAPPY THANKSGIVING* to everyone. well, i'm gonna go gotta help mom fix some stuff for thanksgiving dinner tomorrow. :-D see yous guys later... toodles *doodles*