hey.... well, not really. i'm back but i'm not. i've had a lot going on with school so i've been busy and stressed out over that so that's no fun. plus, right now i'm in this whole and it's really dark and cold and lonely and i can't get out. it's really scaring me and i don't know what to do. i don't really know what's going on either. i mean, i'm not exactly sure what to think b/c nothing has been said and no one has any clue what i'm talking about... lol. well, it's not fun at all. i'm stuck in this confused place b/c my bf is having some thoughts or trouble or something and he hasn't talk to me about it but i'm sure it's me. it's me, something i did or maybe didn't do i have no idea but he wants me to stop calling him and kinda just let him be until he wants to talk so i'm trying my best to leave him alone but it's really hard b/c i kinda depend on him for just about everything. i'm so used to being able to talk to him and him listen to me and just actually care compared to the other people around me so i'm so ready for him to talk to me whether it's bad or good, which i hope things will be okay but if they're not i guess this won't be the first time so i'm prepared... i guess. well, this isn't much and i'll try to get on more but our computer is messing up and i might not be here for a while... well, thank you for all the people who actually read these entries and leave comments and care so thanx. ×doodles×