well, this day was going pretty good but no matter what they always do something so stupid that messes it up and gets me all mad or upset again...i really hate them with a passion. yeah, things were going pretty good here b/c school was alright today and i got to talk to troy and were doing okay and when i got home today off of the bus my uncle tim was knocking on our door. he came out here from texas and he'll be leaving tuesday. well, my uncle tim is the greatest uncle ever... he's helped me through alot with my parents and he's just really been here for me and i've haven't seen him in forever so it's great that he's here. also, i had all these good plans for this weekend that are all canceled of course. that's why everything's down hill now. i can't see troy at the horse barn tomorrow and he can't go with us to callaway gardens and i won't see him sunday either. then monday he's still coming to see me i hope but i don't know how that's gonna turn out beings mama doesn't want troy here...but he's coming so we'll just have to see how that goes. and mama and daddy are saying all this crap about me and it's just so stupid over here. i can't stand these people at all and they have to go and do all this while uncle tim is here at that. i mean, what do they won't from me... i can't be perfect and i know that's what they won't but that's to bad b/c i'm not perfect and i'll never be and i don't want to be... i'm just ready to get out of here. i'm ready for summer so i can go to texas and maybe florida & tennessee and then troy will be at troup his senior year and then he'll graduate and i'll have one more year and then we'll get out of here and go to college and i've just gotta get out of here... i can't take all this crap anymore it's so stupid and i'm so tired of all the crap i mean really, i don't purposely make their lives miserable so why do they have to try their hardest to make mine that way... it's so stupid i swear. well, i'm gonna go for now and ugh i'll be back sometime again i'm sure... i was gonna try to write my baby something for valentine's day but right now good things just don't come easy and i just can't think of something to write that i haven't already said so i'll try to work on that... well, i guess that's it for now...not like things have changed or will so nothing new here. well, i'm out.... ¤lost & broken¤