well well....look who's back so soon...yeah, i know...wow. so what's been going on here...me, oh if you only knew...i'm gonna shoot someone i swear...not really but i feel like it. anyways...well, how was everyone's thanks giving? mine, well it was pretty good. i ate like crazy and was still full the next morning so i was stuffed and my sexy stud muffin came over and surprised me that morning...little turd :-D lol...lord...but umm and then saturday and sunday i got to see troy too so that was another bonus...so things were pretty good until the end of course. well, what i mean is the real end tho...not just the fact that our break was over but as soon as my baby left...i didn't want to say goodbye but on his way home he had a wreck...i think it was my fault...i just can't help but think that tho...everything else is my fault so why not this too ya know(probably not) but anywho and then i was put on restriction so i couldn't even talk to my baby since he's had the wreck and that was sunday night so it's been about a week now, just about but i've been sneaky and called him when no one knew or on a friends cell phone cuz i'm just good like that...mahahahahahaha LOL but anywho and besides all these things with me i guess i'm okies...not real sure. i don't think i have any feelings anymore...yeah, i guess so. i can't tell whether i'm ok so yeah, no feelings. umm...... oh yeah, another thing that's eating at me is my baby's mom.....she's really pushing my buttons tonight....gonna say troy can't see me b/c he's to sick...well then why in the world did she let him see me all the other times when he was just as sick or about it anyway. what difference is it going to make now, i'm not sick now and i don't really care if i do get sick i mean i just want to see my troy...that's all. i don't care if he's sick or not...i wish he was better but still what does she care anyway. i know she doesn't care about me and it really doesn't seem like she care about him either but who knows cuz i sure can't tell. but really she's getting on my nerves about this and all i want to do is see him. well, ya know, i think i better go b/c i need to finish writing my baby's note just incase i see him tomorrow and even if not i think i'm gonna go see him and give him his stuff anyway so i'll get on that and i'll try to be back soon. maybe i'll be in a better mood...doubtful but just maybe and hopefully troy will come see me tomorrow anyway...even tho that women said not to...i just hope he doesn't get into any trouble...well, i'm gone cuz i know you're tired of my yacking so bye..... doodles