omg, since waking up wednesday ive been feeling like nothing can top seeing smackdown o.0 i mean chew told me about the tickets like 2 months ago so there has been some huge ass lead up and my mind has been JUST on that (and cwk of course) and now its come and gone it seems there is nothing left in my life worth seeing? i think the only thing that can top seeing smackdown live... IS SEEING WRESTLEMANIA LIVE!!! hmmm id trade my first born child for a ticket to wrestlemaniz (seriously, any females out there want a kid i give you sperm in exchange SERIOUS!!!) think im just gonna splash out on every cena clothes and accessory possible, :P but something else has been on my mind recently, its an old flame (not kacy, coz she was like a spark? / few weeker?) on this occasion we goin old skool... ironically, and i mean DOUBLE-U TEA EFF!!!! -ironically, "all the things she said" by tatu have just come on... "i want her so much" =/ ------------------------------------------ "I'm in serious shit, I feel totally lost If I'm asking for help it's only because Being with you has opened my eyes Could I ever believe such a perfect surprise? I keep asking myself, wondering how I keep closing my eyes but I can't block you out Wanna fly to a place where it's just you and me Nobody else so we can be free" ------------------------------------- strangely exactly how im feeling, we were togehter for about 5-6 months, then it got messed up, then we kinda got back together around new year but i couldnt make a decision so we called it a day again, and now i just feel like i really want her... part of me wants her to be out on saturday but another part doesnt coz it might complicate things... maybe she doesnt feel the same way anymore? ------------------------------------------- "And I'm all mixed up, feeling cornered and rushed They say it's my fault but I want her so much Wanna fly her away where the sun and rain Come in over my face, wash away all the shame When they stop and stare - don't worry me 'Cause I'm feeling for her what she's feeling for me I can try to pretend, I can try to forget But it's driving me mad, going out of my head" -------------------------------------------- i just dunno, if i think ok i want to be with her again, then i go all stupid like i did 5 month ago, and it fucks up again, ARGH-FFFF im happy and sad @ the same time :O i think i should just concentrate on planning on how im gonna get a ticket and get to wrestlemania lol bleh