As the title suggests, this is the first in what will probably be a long line of ramblings about general life as i listen to various bits of music :P so much inspiration will be coming from how the music makes me feel :D im in a kind of strange mood tonight, im not happy and at the same time im not sad and for once im not actually after beating someone within an inch of their life, which is nice. i guess you could say im at peace with various things, well besides my parents but thats like an eternal war that shall wage until the day one of us croaks... i just got BT Broadband upgraded to 2.2MB from my old crappy 512KB connection, they're upgrading all their connections so all this 4x faster thing came for free! no price increase at all, well they have to, inorder to stay in competition with the likes of NTL and AOL, as recently there has been a huge upgrade war and the battle for top dog in the ISP world is a vicious one, no love lost in this one i tell thee lad. I miss the days of SHENMUE >.< i used to spend days and nights playing that game, just running around and admiring the scenery thinking i was actually in Japan, hope i visit there one day. I wanna move to america one day, this place simply bores me now but i dont know which part of the states i'd wanna go to, Ohio maybe, probably California or New York, but i fear i might get into a state of home sickness, "i went away but what i really left, left behind was me" :( Another "fun-packed" saturday night is on the horizon, the alternative scene is mainly about the EMO now, the metallers have travelled on, and i've been left behind so now i feel really out of place, i think a change of dress sense and style is in order, ha ha the streets, the good old British band that tells it in British slang lol, "I coulda ruined it, im such a Tw*t" too true. any way back to the emo's and their ways, yes indeed i need a change of dress-ness, which could involve a hair cut... i think im getting a hair do in May anyways because my aunty is getting married so i wanna look teh sex, so all her mates can be like WOAH you gots a fine piece o' ass there, and she be like "aye, he be ma nephew" then i get free drinks :D dunno if id suit anything like a blazer though, i think its baggies and shirt for the win, so i need to invest in some more baggies and shirts. hmm, i might wear a white shirt on saturday just for a laugh, hmm, T-shirt under it, you ask, well maybe, i dont know yet, i think im going to look through my clothes and see what goes with what so i can get a wash on... YYYAAAYYY i just been on mir again, and my refine worked... ------------------------------------ **NOTE** Refine = weapon upgrading, you give a weapon to a guy along with a recipe, and there is a chance it'll work and a chance it wont and the weapon will brake, mine just successfully upgraded, which means it gained a stat and didnt brake :D ------------------------------------ anyways firefox has finished upgrading so im back :D i just been speaking to my bessie mate chew online, and he's soooo happy atm, he been havin a bit o'trouble and i stood by him and was there when he needed someone to spk to and he's over the moon now that everythings sorted and so am i, he's a top guy and deserves happiness, so t'will be an extra ace saturday now because our plans for a leet night are in the final stages of confirmation, then it'll be teh sex no matter what! but i am there for chew all the time, im there for all my mates but i reckon chew gets top priority coz he's a cool guy and its shit what he's going through. anyways yeah im bored now of typing time for some gaming Peace.