urgh i dunno... situation: i completely dunno where i stand with Hannah its all hot and cold shit, i just dunno if this'll last the week, i mean i really like her but i just cant stand all this shit like not knowing where u stand etc, like 1 min she's all kissy kissy and the next she's distant. if she's trying not to push me away then she's got an opposite effect going... i think tonight we'll have a good chat... i spoke to her best mate sam today and she says i aint done anything wrong and that we're ok coz i've cheered her up alot and she's happy etc but i just aint getting that vibe... shes hidden her marital status on face party, (it aint there) so what am i meant to think? tbh to me, that says "look at the moment im questioning our relationship" or she doesnt want someone else to know she's taken? fuck knows i dunno anymore all i know is that this is deffinately the last relationship i have ever... im gonna have my kids made in a lab or sumthin or just not have any fuck knows i dont care. MIR brings relief, lol as strange as it sounds i played mir (properly) for the first time in like 2 weeks, and i completely forgot about reality and all the shit that comes with it.... i think i've come to terms with us ending soon, its like being on death row...u know your gonna die so u have to come to terms with it. i have, if us ending woulda come outta the blue it woulda been bad, maybe even hurt a lil but instead im just like "well i knew it would happen" i gotta get away from vies, its like Hannah said, everyone knows everyone else, so say we finished tomorrow, and i went out on saturday and pulled, someone would be wanting to take a swing @ me thinkin i was cheatin on Hannah... so yeah... talk, tonight, the end? or the beginning of us - new and improved? she just signed on....my hearts racing...