WELCOME HOME MY DEARS. I know, its been over a month. Tell it to my lame ass internet who wont let me do anything. Alot has happened. School let out. My sister graduated. The family came up. Emilie and John had parties. Devon is soon having a party. We started the movie gang (Me, Lynds, Emilie, Kate McKeon, Devon, Dan, Cody, Max, and Brady.) So far we've seen Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban and Spiderman 2. I'm planning our next outing to be The Village, even though Max is retarded. ANYWHO, yeah. There's been some interesting things that have happened ;) but lets not get into that. *tehe* "I am such a sucker. And I'm always the last to know. My insides are copper. I'd kill to make them gold... Conversation got me here. Another night alone in the city. So make this bed the grave, And shovel dirt onto my sheets." Man, have I missed doing that. So, yeah. Emilie was over yesterday. We played a few games, cuddled for a few hours, drank a little bit, danced in the middle of the night, went on the roof, and watched moooovies :) Now THAT my friend is a combo for a good time! I love you Emerald -) You get a cyclops face. Aren't you special :) esswtk90: well if u asked me "kayla t" id be all like well durn gurl u no da answer to dat shessssss so fine she can be mine! ((YOU HEARD!)) "You try so hard to be someone That you forget who you are. You tried to fill the emptiness, Till all you had spilled over. Now everythings so far away That you forget where you are. And all that you wanted. And all that you had Don't seem so much for you to hold onto..." SO.Yuck, I have Desiree tomorrow. Girls gonna be the death of me, I swear. I need money though, so she's lucky. I have $45 from watching her last week. But I got about 20 albums I need to buy so that isn't gonna cut it :( "S h E ' l L d E s T r O y U s A l L b E f O r E s H e ' S t H r O u G h A n D f I n D a W a Y t O b L a M e S o m E b O d Y e L s E..." Oh, did I mention my fiance left me?! AND DIDNT EVEN SAY ANYTHING?! Second time. Well, I miss him :( I miss Dan too. STUPID CAMPOUTS. So yeah... I'm lonley. :( And my Des is home! YAY I heart my Nanny. The house was getting FILTHY without her *giggle* So cha cha cha. Here I am. With nothing to talk about... as usual. So... schyeah. LMAO haha I just remembered that one 5ive song tehe "Oh baby when the lights go out, Every single word could not express The love and tenderness I'll show you what its all about Babe I swear you will come to me. So baby come to me when the lights go out. As I take your clothes off, You're body looks so soft In between the sheets I'll lay you down girl I wanna knock your socks off." WHOO THAT WAS AWESOME. Those kids owned. ANYWAY, its 7: 34. I have no clue WHAT is going on. Tuesdays sposed to be a Springville day, but I dunno if I feel like going. I mean I just saw Dev and Lynds, and Brady just got like, mad at me for no reason. BUT, I do wanna see my Dessssssss for I love her... and Emilie I miss my Raz :( WHOOPS didn't mean that out loud. ANYWHO. I also miss Headbangers Ball. I haven't seen it since freakin school let out. and that was June 10th. Over a month. thats like, 4 quality shows. So.. fizgig. "I see your face with every punch I take. And every bone I break, It's all for you. My worst pains are words I cannot say. Still I will always fight on for you..." I miss my duckie necklace I got at the parade with Dev and Cea. Tood gimes, for shore -) Met there male friends from Montrose. Well some. Who KNOWS how many are out there. But yeah, only thing I got all day was my duck necklace, besides three sodas. HOLY CRAP. THAT MEANS I HAVE TWENTY BUCKS IN MY PANTS POCKET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't believe I forgot! SCHWING!... DAMN IT. My mom already took it out of my pants. WOMEN. Argle Fargle. I fuckin hate her sometimes. DAMMIT KLAJDLSAJOIATJIAJIJEPAJREAJ;SAJPATIPQJ[L;SMKLGNIPAO[KACMGDNIPAOJKDNNAIPJRAOP[KMKANIPAHGTP[AJDANGIP[AOJCKHJIPHA[JCAKLGIPAHA[JKC; AOHF[AIJP[]ALC[A F; [ASR0932 70JCA9R 73109SA KJVN SAOITRY9PAJF;GHJIPAJFO;AHGOH JS ;FHIPAJSGIPAF JOSAGHAP FJKOPSAJFO[AJGO JVZVMOPAJ9R[OAI T[Q'GKO[AHJOP[QP[]QKDL MASAFKS APKDAPK;'FSA9-D=A09-=KL;FBFEA;'FSAGDS;'. THERE.ARE YOU HAPPY NOW?! Now I shall go watch the DTR DVDs and try to regain my composure. I shall end this with "Vindicated." "Vindicated. I am selfish. I am wrong. I am right. I swear Im right. Swear I knew it all along. And I am flawed. But I am cleaning up so well. I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself So clear like the diamond in your ring Cuts a mirror your intentions Oversized and overwound The sight of which has caught my eye And brought me in so mesmerizing Its so hypnotizing I am certain now that I am Vindicated I am selfish. I am wrong. I am right. I swear Im right. I swear I knew it all along. And I am flawed. But I am cleaning up so well. I am seeing in me now The things you swore you saw yourself So tight are the corners of your lips Part them. Feel my fingertips. Trace the moment, fall forever. Defense is paper thin Just one touch and I'd Be in too deep now to ever swim against the current. So let me slip away. Hope dangles on a string. Like slow spinning redemption...." Yeah, the words are prolly wrong, but they're close for me doing that completely by memory. I'm still angry at my mom :( Leave a comment if you wish. I love you -)