So, It's me again. What a shocker. I'm lonley. And when I get my pictures, I'll pick a good one and put it as my diary header instead of the "tripy" thing thats up there now. Even though I still think the one up is the shiznit, but ey, so is a pic of me and Rob :) "What I thought was certainty, Has left me spinning in circles again. Compared to the last time that we spoke, It seems to me that you aren't happy. Like you used to be..." So, it is currently 6:30 on a Tuesday, and I'm sitting down here on the computer. Alone. While Kara packs, my mom talks on the phone, my dad is god knows where on his big truck, and Kathleen is at the Hartford Fair with my Samuel. This obviously further proves the point that I have no life whatsoever. "Hello ladies and gentelmen. I'm so glad you've graced me with your presence. You're just intime to see me wrestle with my conscience Staring into silence. See I came to save the stage, I hope I'm not too late. Passion called from back behind the curtain, Screaming "SONNY THIS IS URGENT" How do I address the letter to my generation? Sonny, she said, save yourself the postage. How do I address the letter to my generation? Sonny, she said, sing it in person." Yeah, good song. You probably didn't get it, but I did, since I'm increidbly hip -). If you did, kudos. "HELLO WORLD. Suck the life right out of my voice, And breathe it back into yourself." So, schyeah. What to talk about. I can't find my money that I need to pay for my pictures which sucks. Oh and my mom is getting a package from the phone company kinda like Lyndseys getting I guess. We get Caller ID, Call Waiting, DSL, and, oh yeah, I GET MY OWN PHONE LINE, BITCH! Well, I have to share it with Kara and Kath. But Kara will be at college, so its really code for me and Kathleen. It's cool though, I'll just answer it "Hello, Kayla here." or something hip like that. I'll think of something entertaining. "I hope it's something worth the waiting. Because its the only time that I ever feel real. Thunderstorms could never stop me. Because theres no one in the world like.. Danny." Tehe... should say Emily but I'm cool and I changed it to something else. SO SUE ME. Sides, Dans the only one who reads this thing anyway. So, schyeah. Lyndsey went to Devons, again. And Emilie and me aren't really talking, I dont know if shes mad at me or whats going on. So, here I sit, spending another night alone. DUDE THATS A SONG!!!! AHHH!! "I can't stand to spend another night alone. Say goodbye to Mr. Right, Lock your doors, turn out the lights. Pack your bags, leave this trap. Run away, don't look back." Man, remember the good ole days. Whoo. So yeah. I have currently been on AIM for... 54 minutes and not been IMed once. "Do you see the life I lead? So follow me into the sun And I will bleed the poison dry for you." Sorry. Perfect opportunity to plug that in there. So, schyeah. OOO BRADYS ON! Ha he loves me. "Fame. What shes wanting. Not a face in the crowd, Just a disposible pop star..." SCHWING! I'm remembering all these old SR songs. Bada-bing, baby!... That was increidbly scary lmao. Oh well. Let me think of another one. Man. HAHA GOT ONE. "And I'm never out of bed before noon. And waking up too late would be too soon. And I, could never be Neil Armstrong, I'd be the last man on the moon. Well whos ever heard of an astronaut with one arm? I'd be the last man on the moon..." Muahaha, Dan Garvin I miss you! JUST HAD TO LEAVE THE BAND DIDNT YOU?! Meh, oh well. Every member of the band left anyway. Johns the only original member left lmao poor kid. I still love him. So... hmmm... what to talk about. My sister gave me her old perfume. It's this crappy melon delight stuff you get at Wal Mart, but it doesnt smell that bad. I think I'll stick with my Care Bear Perfume though. :) So... hmm... I miss Hot Topic. I think if I go there I can remember the good Warped Times. I want to go back to Texas. Or Maryland. I miss Garret so bad, and I want to see my Uncle Kevin too. My Uncle Guy videotaped the hurricane lmao. Yes, he lives in Florida, for the record. His swingset, one of those nice wood ones, got ripped right out of the ground and thrown like three houses down. So.. schyeah. PacWoman1R3J1E7: have an affair with the dentist:-D T0RMeNtEdS0UL88: shes married PacWoman1R3J1E7: thats why I said AFFAIR! Tood gimes. So, like, today, I was like, outside, and it was like, sunny, and I'm like, ow, you're like, hurting my eyes. Like. Haha dont ask where that came from. Border I get the more I go Valley Girl. It's a gift. Man. I hate boobs. They never grow on people who want them, and wont STOP growing on the people who dont. DONT THEY HAVE A SOUL?! Anywho. Sorry about that. YOU'LL NEVER GUESS WHICH SIDE I FALL ON MUAHAHAHA... I'm such a mooser. "Hey Chris. You were our only friend. And I know this is belated, But we love you back." Ha felt like writing down that song. ANYWHO. PacWoman1R3J1E7: andddd me and Lyndsey will get stuck at Dietrich with Princess Diaries 2:-D T0RMeNtEdS0UL88: yes sweetness PacWoman1R3J1E7: THANKS:-D T0RMeNtEdS0UL88: I forgot I posted several of my better poems on DA ...Hes lucky. So, today, was boring. I didnt even wake up till like 2:45. Dispite Kathleen banging on my door and asking me if I had money. Felt like a bank robbery shista. I've been wearing my retainers. The dentist lady said I'm going to have to get teeth pulled if I dont. Soooo I decided it was best. She's also making me use mouthwash and floss. BAH. I don't floss. It hurts and my gums bleed and I hate it. So bite me. I'LL STICK TO MY CINAMMON RUSH CREST WHITENING EXPRESSIONS, SCHFANKS. "I'll hide your body in my walls, Your body will never be found, I'll wear your skin as a suit. Pretend to be you. Your friends will like you more than they used to." Ha I love that song. CLASSIC. HOLY SHIITE!!!!! Brittany Mowry just called me! I love her! She's still going out with Jimmy and hmmmm... shes taller? lol. Well, it was a grand conversation full of pin-dropping akward silences we made fun of. Oh, how I miss her. I still miss the Brooke Sarf too :( So the lifes been pretty good I guess. I'm still going through WSS. I think I will be for a long time though, its nothing new. cmax64: playing some good old ESPN NFL 2K5 Gotta love abbreviations "Two roads split off from here, And my life goes running in opposite directions Exaggerating the barrier between who I am And who I want to be I wanted to be that breath of fresh air When everything smells so insincere But this taste still lingers in my mouth, Deciet has ways of sticking around And Im wanting to disappear, But vacation seems far from here. Note to self: I miss you terribly This is what we call a tragedy. Come back to me, back to me, to me. I can feel my mind wandering again Into where? I dont know And will I ever get home? Time starts moving faster than I can. I'm sick of this scene. I need to break this routine..." Well, excuse me while listen to some music and talk to well... Max ha. I'll write back later :) "Words dont seem to come too easy When I need them oh so badly. This distance seems closer When you SHOVE IT IN MY FACE. Throw this paper into fire, And throw me with it. Just throw me with it..."