Crestfallen? lmao. SO, its Saturday morning. I'm quite tired. It's currently 7:58, and in about an hour I'm gonna be heading off to Maryland for a few days. I probably will have a horrible time, and be thinking about how much everyone hates me. But, what else is new. I'm sposed to bring back Emerald a crab hat and Casandra a man. Hell I don't even know if I'll get to the store :( Maybe I'll get to stop at a truck stop along the way that will be just FULL of winners, and I can prolly get my dad to buy me some stuff since its just me, him, and my mom. Kara can't go for some unknown reason, and Kath is staying home because Joe's supposed to call today from Georgia. So yeah, I get the whole car to myself, which owns, since usually I have to share the back seat for 8+ hours with Kathleen. Marylands only 4 and a half though, tops, and I'm alone with my CD player, so it should be a good time. "Feel like every chance to leave Is another chance I should have took. Every minute is a mile. I've never felt so hollow... I'm an old abandoned church With broken pews and empty aisles. My secrets for a buck. Watch my as I cut myself wide open On this stage Yes, I am payed to spill my guts. Won't see home till spring. Oh, I would kill for the Atlantic. But I am payed to make girls panic while I sing. And we won't let you in, Though we're down and out... You win. And the coastline is quiet. While we're quietly losing control. We are silent but sure We invented the cure That will wash out the memories of her The harpoon is loaded. The cage is lowered. The water is red. Like you..." So, yeah. People said they were gonna try and get on this morning and talk to me, but sofar its only Kristen Boyce. And she didn't even know I was going. So yeah, feel real loved. Like always. Brady if you read this I hope you're feeling better, I'm sorry. You know I love you... You know what. I know all the words to Sic Transit Gloria by heart and I haven't even listened to this album in like, 4 months. Not since I went to Texas. So thats what, early March? Dayum... I wish I was in Texas. :( I miss my Uncle Kevin. And my Grandma. And my Uncle Karl and Aunt Melissa and Cabot. Mostly my Uncle Kevin. He always takes time to hang out with me. HE KNOWS IM HIS FAVORITE :) "I am heaven sent. Don't.you.dare.forget. I am all you ever wanted. What all the other girls all promised. Sorry I told. I just needed you to know... I think in decimals and dollars. I am the cause to all your problems. Shelter from the cold. We are never alone... Coordinate brain and mouth. Then ask me what its like to have myself so figured out. Wish I knew... I hope this song starts a craze. The kind of song that ignites the air waves. The kind of song that makes people glad to be where they are. With whoever they're there with. This.is.war. Every line is about who I don't want to write about anymore... Hope you come down with something they can't diagnose. Don't have the cure for. Holding onto your grudge. Oh its so hard to have someone to love... And keeping quiet is hard. Because you can't keep a secret if it never was a secret to start. At least pretend you didnt wanna get caught... We're concentrating on falling apart. We were contenders, Now we're throwing the fights. I just want to believe in us... We're so controversial. We are entierly smooth. We admit to the truth, We are the best at what we do. And these are the words you wish you wrote down. This is the way you wish your voice sounds. Handsome and smart. Oh my tounges the only muscle on my body That works harder than my heart. And its all from watching tv. And from speeding up my breathing. Wouldn't stop if I could. Oh, it hurts to be this good. You're holding onto your grudge. Oh, it hurts to always have to be honest with the one that you love. Oh, so let it go..." Okay. Maybe it isn't just Sic Transit Gloria. I know practically all the Brand New songs by heart. Hot damn... Hot damn :( Memories. ANYWHO. Now Paul, Tracy, Randy, and Blayre are all on. None of them are talking to me. Some of them I don't want too, but they still aren't. And now my moms complaining about the dogs. You know, if it weren't for Baby and Duchess I'd prolly sit inside all day. For shore. Not like theres anything to do around here. Or anyone to do anything with. Not without traveling for at least 5 minutes by CAR. And I'm still working on my dad for a four wheeler. My mom says she wants one too. "It'd be nice to have" she says. My dad would love one, since he rides the lawn mower up to Jim's house and a tractor (which isn't even ours) to Sonny's. He's a crazy character. "I'm glad that I can forgive. I'm only hoping as time goes I can forget..." That line has to be my like, life moto. I never get over anything. People don't notice. They're always like "How the hell do you remember that?!"... probably from all the pain it caused me? But whatever. Alas, I must depart. I have to go feed my girls and then feed Swizzle. Dan. I'll miss him :( ANYWHO, yeah. I'll write back when I can. If you're reading this, I prolly miss you. Deff miss you. Leave a comment if you miss me too, or if you don't know me, and just find me incredibly hip -)