I haven't answered my cell phone in days,
and it's made me relaxed.
I haven't returned calls,
rarely text message,
I haven't made plans at all either.
I haven't wanted to talk to anyone or see anyone,
besides the person I just called up.
I don't know what's wrong with me,
but I don't care what's wrong with me,
I'm tired of being a slave to the phone,
answering it,
returning calls,
returning texts,
checking it,
etc,
etc,
etc.
I'm tired of making plans.
So I finally said screw it,
and I've kept my phone off unless I left the house, and if I got a call that wasn't from family, I've ignored it.
honestly, it might piss people off,
but I've never felt this amazing,
this free,
this happy.
Which can come as a surprise because last night I felt so low, and just sat in a chair starring at a blank tv screen, watching my silhouette and crying.
I called up Rachel, my friend of 12 years maybe 13 years.
It's beautiful today,
aujourd'hui est jolie.
I don't know if that makes sense,
but I don't care.
Cramps.
I don't care.
I take the pills with the caffine and with my heart murmor,
and the label says "may cause rapid heart beat if used with caffine" and you know what?
I don't care.
It's such a beautiful day,
and I'm just waiting for a tragedy.
So I'm over joyous going to the lake today.
Rachel's the only person I want to see today.
don't know why, don't care.
yeahhh, I'm blithe.
I'm disappointed.
I was looking so forward to renting a boat, but the boat season doesn't start until april,
two days away.
It disappoints me since it's a beautiful beautiful day.
no wait, thats gas...