you know what my problem is? I care too much about what my friends think about me, I care too much about what they have to criticize me. I care too much when they say anything cruel to me. When my friends criticize me in a non-straight forward way, I'm left devasted. Any thing that's not said to my face breaks into pieces. I completely hate how my friends will act completely nice and compliment me and tell me i'm beautiful, but the second they go to write about something, they go and criticize me for my flaws. Everytime I defend myself, It's treated like an excuse. Why do I meet the wrong people? I've cared for people who could just careless about me and they'll admit it. I consider these people my friends, and I'm constantly caring about them, but to know what they think of me seriously hurts. I get so overwealmed at times, but I swear the people I call my friends just like playing mind games with me, and as anyone reading this might simply say "get new friends and stop caring", but when I've devoted time to people. Now that I think of it, I think I've been used for alcohol and an alibi. I'm just so fed up with this shit. I move on, and i get trapped into the same situations. I guess I'm becoming despondent. I didn't feel like this for a long time, but whatever.