It's been awhile since I've been so emotional. Things with my mother have gone in a downward spiral. We've been arguing since tuesday evening and I don't see it coming to an end. She makes me feel like I'm not good enough, I have a 4.0 GPA and I'm class president. I cook and I clean and I'm pretty much independent. But all I ever hear is about how I don't do enough. I'm really reaching my breaking point. Yesterday, I went to the flea market and bought a print of a painting. It's of a woman sitting at a piano with a giant bright red victorian style dress. I also decorated my wall with cut-outs from magazines. It was a nice little project to fill up my time. I really don't know what to do with myself. I just don't feel much these days. I like sitting around doing nothing, and I like being by myself. My best friend of 13 years is moving, and I just don't know how to feel about it. I'm trying to be as positive as possible. It's good that her family is moving on and it will be good for them to have more opportunities. My neighbors are being forced to move, because their brother-in-law has basically screwed up his life and his relatives'. The house to the left of them is for sale and the house behind mine just sold. So within the next couple months the neighborhood is going to change alot. I hate to be so cynical, but our neighborhood used to be so nice, but lately we've been having some iffy famlies move in. I don't know, it's just all this change is making me nervous. All I have left is basically Rachel and her family, so hopefully they won't leave me.