Somewhere along life, I lost the ability to trust. I lost the ability to believe in the truth. I can not accept statement as the truth and I believe that I am being decieved. I sit here in my heels and a black dress, and suddenly it has occured to me that I am becoming a women, but is this who I want to be? Why do I feel like I am constantly being decieved? and will I ever be able to trust again? I don't think I'll start trusting again until I expect the truth, and let go of my high standards. I need to cope with myself. I think it's going to be me and my vogue for the rest of the afternoon. study french. go out for dinner. go to inductions.