hmm let see wherer do i begin... well paddy knows i carved the word unpretty into my ankle i showed her she looked a little freaked out when i dod thouhg poo... anyways bakc to what i was writing about orignally... i really like jason things are going great but just something isn't moving its stayed in the same spot for weeks and i want it to move AHH if you think of it dirty thne that didn't sound right but anyways maybe hes nervouse but i dont think so... maybe its me whos nervous... =S why would i be though i mean yah im not writing that down beacuse some one mightread this you never know dam... maybe its just me but i want something more... maybe thast greedy.. wait wtf? am i talking about anyways maybe ill figure it out in the next day or tow i think im starting PMSing fuck hormones and shit screw me over dammit i personally dont like this why is it whenever i PMS i think about suicide =S scary thought... I don't want to die! maybe i do hmmm interesting question i shall think about it more later this might be the last entry if my thoughts pull me towards suicide anyways diary i love you and if it is my last make it hurt love and bloody kisses stephanie