Ok kids. Sorry this has taken so long. Let me start off by stying that I hope that everyone is having a great break. Now, onto the bad news. My grandfather passed away. Right before Christmas. It was tough, I'm not gonna lie. I'm beyond lying about stuff like this. It was really tough. I handled it well though. I cried but kept together enough to help my family through it. Mainly by making inaproperate jokes. *winks* I'm also lucky to have had people to call on. If I didn't call yuou please don't feel bad, I just didn't want to jack up my phone bill too high. This is why I haven't had a computer becuase we've all been busy here, espically me and I haven't hoked it up yet. Also bad news I got my report card. I got an F from Sr. No Legs. I swear to Jesus if I ever see her she better be able to somehow run. How the hell do I get an "F" when I've had a "D" on every godforsaken test? I'm going to go ask how. I'm sick of the bullshit, and even if I can't get a D I'll still make a freaking ruckus. Then two C+s and all Bs and an A. Yah I suck. I really truely do and I dunno how I'm going to get through all of this. I think I should just drop out of school becuase I'm worthless there. So yah. Anyway besides all of that this was one of the best Christmas' ever. I really do mean that. I don't really know about anything right now. I know I feel like a failure at life. Maybe it's just becuase I'm suposed to get my period soon but I'm really down right now. I wish people would come online and I don't have Chad's new screenname. I'm on the new family computer. It has the new AIM on it....the new AIM confuses me. *shudders* Anyway I had a good chirstmas. But I feel worthless. Hopefully it's just hormones. New Year's prayer. Dear God thanks for all the good times, All the laughs, All the late night drives, All the late night talks. Thanks for my family. Thanks for my friends. Thanks for getting me through this year somehow. Not to sound like a tennager crying for help but I'm not sure how it happened, Getting through it all that is. Please let this year be better. Let ME be better. A better friend, A better daughter, A better studenmt (cause we all know I'm terrible at that) Please let me keep handling my depression well enough that I'm not put on meds. Never let me be a burden. Let me manage it all. Please just help me, becuase I need it so much, Lord. I'm not strong, so yah. Thanks.