I dunno. I'm just so torn about everything. I feel like I need some more time before I get back. The semster isn't THAT long. I <3 my roomies. I <3 my friends but...I feel so lost. I feel inadiquite. I dunno how to shake it. I've been stressing this for a while now. Maybe once I get to school it'll just suddenly feel right again. That's what usually happens. I just don't know. I kinda feel like I don't even know who I am anymore. I have all these pieces. All of these facets of me but I dunno if I have a clear picture anymore. I need to finish doing laundry. I need to pack. I need to get ready. I need to just do it. I have real reasons why stuff isn't finished yet but now I just have to do it. I have to do back to school and get my damn degree. First I will just get through this semester. But before all of that I need to sleep becuase I'm just so tired right now. I hate crying. I hate worrying. Yet I still do it. I've been told I should. I';ve been told it's ok. But it doesn't feel ok. I just feel empty in the end. I'm sorry. This should be a perky "OMG!!! SCHOOL!!!!" entry but it's not. It's a sad excuse for an entry lol. It's almost emo....all I need is soemthing abo9ut my poor, tattered heart being weighjed down by chaines that force it to bleed like the tears that stream from my eyes. Oh hey...look...now it's emo. JK. (Sorry kids...had to end with sarcasim. It makes me feel better)