feeling: i can't really explain how im feeling hearing: nothing im home alone yesterday was a good/bad day. so much shit happened yesterday..not all good. me steph sarah and sam went to the hot dog shop. we had fun. this guy came in he was like 8 feet tall 8 feet wide and his one i was always closed. he wouldn't stop starring at us. it was soo annoying i got a picture of him and he was looking right at the camera creepy? my mom came and we took sam and steph home and sarah came back to my house. we hung out pretty much all day and did nothing at last night. you know im probally risking a lot of shit typing up this pharagraph im gonna type, but im sorry this is my DIARY where i write my feelings and thoughts down in. theres this little bug in my life that likes to fuck with everyone and everything i have. this bugs name is rachel banks. i wish soo much somethimes that she wasn't friends with her. not only bc shes a trouble maker just because she brings so much drama to everyones lives. she treats everyone like shit bc shes the best thing in this world and she treats her cough "best friend" like shit and im not really sure why her best friend puts up with the shit. i really DON'T understand. i want to understand sooo much, but i can't think of any reason why someone would go throw so much shit for this person when she does nothing for her. god and like i said i could be risking a lot with this, but its been in my head for weeks years. it just feels so good to get it out. i know ill never get an answer to this question, but what can i do :/. another thing thats been on my mind these days is becky. i hate how no matter what she does no matter how she treats everyone you always run back to her. i hate it soo much. your never the same with me when your with her. i no for a fact you have no idea you act differently, but you do. i dont consider myself friends with these two people anymore, and now that i've moved on with life and got them out of it things have been better for me. i never thought i would say this, but they have. i don't talk to rachel at all anymore and i hardly ever talk to becky. its better this way i see that now. im just sorry it took me this long to firgure it out. sorry if this entry bothers anyone, but i have a right to what im feelings to. xOxOx