feeling: sleepy hearing: my brothers tv im really not excited anymore. i always make my birthday suck by freaking out on stupid shit. honestly i think the night after my birthday party is going to be better. thats what im looking forward to.. i guess i don't do very well with a lot of attention from people so thats probally why i act the way i do when its my birthday. this year im not going to. im going to try to make it the best even though my moms getting a freaking operation done on my birthday >:o! im so happy this weeks over with. i went to school every day this week! i havn't done that since..i can't remember when :x. last night i went and saw CRASH omg i personally loved it. it was so good, and so meaningful. it was awesome. after kyle was supposed to take us home, but sarah didn't like let him know so he couldn't take us home....ah i wont start. w/e i eventually got home. im kinda freaking out..bc steph wants to do something for her birthday now..and like i don't want her whole surprise thing to turn out gay bc shes planning something..i dunno i really wanted to do something though..gosh. i guess ill still do it even if she does something for her birthday. :( today i work 2-8...ahh not so much fun. tomorrow i have to go food shopping with my mom for my party and shit coming up. since she wont be able to do it at all this week. my dads not letting me have a family party um mean.com. it pisses me off and most kids would be like oh they're prob going to throw a "SURPRISE" birthday party for you. uh i dout it come on my dad no way. so im real bummed about that. another thing im not sure if im going to be getting my fake D&B bad im not sure if it looks to cheap or not and the only way i can get it now is if i get it offline and the pics arn't good enough i don't want to get something that looks omg fake! ahh w/e all i know is that im getting my new marilyn shirt. about my camera too..i have no idea if im getting that either. god the more im thinking about this the more upset im becoming.. xOxOx