feeling: good :) hearing: Funny Little Feeling - Rock n' Roll Soldiers i've been working a lot more :). i worked friday 4-10 tonight 4-8 and tomorrow 12-8! the only place i have fun anymore is work..! weird i know, but its true. i laugh SO much at work. i like who I am at work. it feels so good to have fun, and to not have to worry about any drama. ammie hugged me three times before she left it made me smile..i can't remember the last time i got a hug. i thought i was the one that had to change i thought it was all me. turns out i think i give ppl to much credit. i want to do so much this week since i dont work mon-thur! i think monday robinson yes? then LAGUNA BEACH SLEEPOVER! im so flipping excited! :D i'm going to have lots of fun no matter how much this is bothering me i would write about that, but my friends read this and i'd rather not have them IMing me asking "is that about me in you diary...just wondering" so i'll stick to my plan. the plan you wanna know? to not worry about my friends as much. to worry about myself. i mean why did i ever worry about them as much as i did? oh yea bc without them i would be nothing. i keep waiting for them to do something special for me. like randomly buy me a card, or randomly just being nice. being nice doesnt seem to come up that much in my life these days. shannon was sad yesterday..i was gonna buy her flowers and a card from the good old t-bones, but she informed me that she wasn't going to be home. things like that i do for people. people don't actually realize how upset i really am about this...w/e. i think steph julia and i are going to go to the zoo wednesday or thursday :DDDDDDDD! i ♥ the zoo more then anyone..its so fun, and its not a waist for me! look at that i can actually do someting. then i hope to go to see Charlie and the chocolate factory at the DRIVE IN i also ♥ the drive in lots. so thats my plans for this week. im going to make summer fun even if im with my family the whole time. ps. im going to kennywood (i know i fucking know whats the point) with my family...would any of you like to come? goals: to make more friends to see a shooting star to find love to find the person i used to be