feeling: sick to my stomach hearing: the car under me things got kinda weird for awhile with everyone. i dunno maybe i was just pmsing? kalin and i stopped talking for like a month we weren't mad at eachother just i dunno why. kalins changed a lot. i dunno i don't feel like its for the better. i feel like shes changed herself just for a guy. i know for a fact too that all this guy wants is a peice of ass. guys are dicks, and i hate seeing and hearing about it when it bugs me so much. i guess theres nothing i can really do about it. i'll let her make her mistakes. shannon and i went through a lot of shit too last month. i think it made us a lot stronger though so i guess its a good thing? i really feel like i can talk to her about ANYTHING now. i didn't always feel like that before. good news is i still love julia and stephanie and sarah. lol i felt bad not having them in here. i've been going to the mall with those three like once every weekend and each time i have more and more fun. my birthdays coming up the big 1-6! i wasn't excited, but now i really am starting to get excited. julia shannon kalin sarah and steph are all coming over may 13th and we are going to go to the drive in (i hope) and watch House of Wax dude i can't freaking wait to see that. it looks awesome so old school with the bad guy chasing around all the cute teenagers. aw then after or before we are going to get pizza and eat cake and open presents. wahoo man. then that saturday after we are (the people who arn't going to semi) going to go to eat n park and have lunch. :) i think stephs just gonna chill with me the rest of that day and my fam and maybe shannon are all gonna come over that night. i think im more excited about that then anything bc i love rubbing my friends into brians face (my cousin)i hate him. then stephs birthday is coming up aw that should be cute. then its summer. i have this awful feeling its going to suck, but im trying to ignore that. then its shannons birthday :). man im thinking all this hot shit up for shannons birthday! wahoo oh and i forgot im going to go get my permit with steph :X i can't believe IM going to be behind the wheel! oh gosh. well i guess thats all except this friday im going to see crash with kalin i think and steph and sarah. saturday i work. work is good. surprise surprise. got some new ppl they are all cool i like them all. sunday=mothers day. im buying my mom a rose bush hey its what she wants and we are going shopping and going maybe to the movies! well im out. xOxOx