hmm....it feels good to be calm. tranquil. right now i have a lot of stressful things going on in my head, and while normally it would make me freak out....and maybe i am inside....i am calm. i'm actually dozing off a bit. although...i'm sure that as soon as i remember just what it is that annoys me so....i shall feel the blood pressure rise, the muscles tense up, and then...that climax....when someone makes the mistake of sounding even slightly condescending to me...then....(calm, peaceful, almost annoyingly so voice)i shall explode...and almost certainly be grounded for "attitude"...well. that sucks. haha that was trippy...noice. so there was a HIM concert yestuhday. it rocked. except ville was an asshole at one point...however he was nice the rest of the time...and everyone deserves bitchy moments....so i'll let it go. even tho he was REALLY mean....i mean he called the sound guys "fucking cunts" really loudly and was totally bitching about it. it made the room go totally quiet. *looks down at arm* wtf. i have a bug bite. ow. haha i got 4 HIM shirts out of the deal tho which is quite nice. 2 inside--30 bucks a pop....2 outisde--10 bucks, gotta love the bootlegs. now im slowly remembering how much i have to do...and how much my parents don't understand the pace i work at. i procrastinate, but it works for me. it's just the way i am and how i live my life. but what matters is that in the end i still get it done. but tomorrow i will be quite occupied.... ~at LEAST 2-3 "strong" portfolio art pieces must be finished ~a research report on emily dickinson, complete with analyzation of her poetry....goody.... ~history test that i didnt take the notes for yet must study for ~french i have to study ~math i havent done the homework in 2 weeks and it is actually catching up to me this time so i must make it all up and study.... let's see that's about....ALL of my classes. so....i'm swamped. but....BUT....i am calm. i'm at peace. i will be ok. if i just take it one thing at a time....i'll get it done and will hopefully be back on track with my work. that's the important thing. i can work my ass off tomorrow to get it all done, and i will be set in my schoolwork--OFF the snowball i've created for myself. the hardest part is getting out of that, not maintaining it. ok no more rambling. i honestly can't remember anything that i've written in this entry, that's how i know i rambled. ignore me please...