I haven't been on this site in years. It's so retarded reading all my old entries. Fucking embarrassing. I got my car almost exaaaactly two years ago. Crazy. Reading Jordan's old entries is pretty funny too. I almost want to bring it up to her but she'll get mad. Unless......I do and she reads this. Hi, Jordan.

http://blogs.discovermagazine.com/badastronomy/2009/06/24/the-blue-and-the-green/ Also: I forgot how wonderful the list of Current Mood adjectives is on this site. I can't sleep. And I'm pretty sure I won't be able to sleep in tomorrow morning. Or I'll wake up for a little while, go back to sleep, wake up at like 2pm or something and feel weird for the rest of the day because my sleep schedule is so fucked. Aaaaaah. They cut my hours at work again. Instead of the 25 that I had before (which I thought was majorly weak to begin with) I now have 20. Damn this stupid economy, I wish so badly I could storm out of that stupid store and not have to worry about not having a job for months and months again. They deserve it. I deserve to have a better job. Burn the place down. God I hate them. Still not tired. Or I am, I just...can't...go to sleep. There's nothing to do here online, I don't think anybody is on even. I just finished watching Sunshine Cleaning, which was pretty good. Except that it reminded me of my grandmother's house almost. I need to go to school.

Wow the last entry I posted was two years ago.

Fucking Myspace won't even let me log in now. Bastard... Oooh but this morning I went to pick up the chocolate-covered strawberries from that chocolate place and the guy that was there was reeeeeally hot. Like my gOd. And he kept talking to me which made me happy. So Myspace can be a bitch. See if I care. I'm bored. Waiting for everyone to show up to class. And to bring food. I'm kinda really hungry.

Ugh I'm TIRED. And I'm getting kinda really sick of being in school. Only two more days, at least...so boring here... Today we went to this place in Santa Monica. I forgot what it was called, but it is a train station that was converted into an art gallery. It was pretty cool. So I went there and most of the artwork wasn't exactly anything I would want in my house but it was interesting...so the last gallery I went to was easily my favorite because there were some really amazing drawings there, like stuff I could pull of if I had a bit more training and practice. Then I looked at the names and two of the artists in the gallery were my teachers at Ryman. It was really cool. Especially because it was the one gallery that I really liked more than any of the other ones. I tried taking some pictures but the bitch that worked there told me I couldn't. The only gallery that didn't allow pictures to be taken. Gay. Then I came back and I was trying to find something to bring to class on Thursday for our class party in Cerritos. I was on the list as bringing fruit since I got stuck with it after everyone else chose what they would bring. So first I thought I would get something from edible arrangements because normal fruit is like...boring? But those were too expensive so I went to this really good chocolate place down the street and ordered 2 dozen chocolate dipped strawberries to bring to class. I mean it's fruit...so I'm loke totally gonna be the most popular girl in class. Shyeah... But now I'm tired. I think all the caffeine I ingested today is totally messing with me. Bleh.

1. Is there anybody you just wish would fall off the planet? Duh... 2. How do you flush the toilet in public? What do you mean? Is there more than one way? Shoe, of course. 3. Do you wear your seatbelt in the car? Yeah 4. Do you have a crush on someone? That sounds so...juvenile... But sure kinda. 5. Name one thing you worry about running out of. Conditioner. But I think it would be worse to run out of oxygen so maybe I should have put that... 6. What famous person do you (or other people) think you resemble? There's a list: (apparently I look like a lot of famous people) (ahem) Lisa Marie Presley Amy Lee Cristina Scabbia Ali Larter Those are the main ones. The funny thing is that they all look different. 7. What is your favorite pizza topping? Cheese. But mostly it's the crust I'm picky about. 8. Do you crack your knuckles? Never. I don't even know how that's possible. You're all going to get arthritis...crazy people.. 9. What song do you hate the most? Ugh that one song...I forget who sang it but my dad kept singing it and it was horrible. Umm... 10. Did just mentioning that song make it get stuck in your head? Yeah shut up I'm trying to think of the name 11. What are your super powers? This is a gay attempt to think of an interesting question. 12. Peppermint or spearmint? Is there a big difference? I dunno... 13. Where are your car keys? Over there -------> 14. Whose answers to this questionnaire do you want to hear? I don't care. I just have nothing to do. 15. What's your most annoying habit? Looking into mirrors probably. 16. Where did you last go on vacation? Like an actual vacation? Hawaii probably...god that was a long time ago... 17. What is your best physical feature? Eh I dunno. Eyes probably. 18.What CD is closest to you right now? Jordan has all my CDs. 19. What 3 things can always be found in your refrigerator? Ha you never know in my house... 20. What superstition do you believe/practice? None that I can think of. 21. What color are your bed sheets? Dark red. Actually here they're white... 22. Would you rather be a fish or a bird? Bird probably. Water gets kinda gross when fish are in it. 23. Do you talk on your cell phone when you drive? Nah. 24. What are your favorite sayings? ...sayings? 25. What song(s) do you sing most often in the shower? I...don't? 26. If you could go back in time would you? Well duh. 27. What is your favorite Harrison Ford movie? Uuuuh maybe the first Indiana Jones one...I can't believe I forgot what it was called...Temple of Doom? Shit I dunno...I used to think he was soooo cute. But yeah now he's like 100. 28. What CD is in your stereo? I told you already.... 29. What CD will be in your stereo in a few minutes? God. Okay... 30. How many kids do you plan on having? I don't know. One, if any. IF any. 31. If you could kiss anyone who would it be? ...? 32. What do you do when no one is watching? Nothing? I dunno it depends on what I'm doing. 33. If they made a movie about your life, what actor/actress would be you? I have no idea. 34. Would you rather die in a blaze of glory or peacefully in your sleep? I'd rather not...die. 35. Coffee or Tea? Hmm tea maybe...but I love coffee. 36. Favorite musician(s)/bands you've seen in concert? Actually Joe Satriani was really good, but Manson was cool, too. 37. Have you ever been in love? Er... 38. Do you talk to yourself? ha, i talk to myself in french in my head all the time. yeah, i know, shut up... ^^^ matt wrote that, but it's true for me too. i didn't know how to change the wording..so that's my answer. ^^^^ I actually used to do the same exact thing when I was in that class so I can relate. Pshh but yeah I talk to myself constantly.

Strange Survey...Have you ever licked the back of a CD to try to get it to work?::No. That's kinda gross and I'm pretty sure it wouldn't work.What's the largest age difference between yourself and someone you've dated?:: Like 2 and a half years I think?Ever been in a car wreck?::Crash, not a wreck.Were you popular in high school?::Not particularly. I knew a lot of people but not like...insanely popular...Have you ever been on a blind date?::I've pretty much refused to go.Are looks important?::Yes. To an extent.Do you have any friends that you have known for 10 years or more?::Ha no.By what age would you like to be married?::If I get married, hopefully before 25 or 27 Does the number of people a person has slept with affect your view of them?:: Well yeah but it depends. Like if they had slept with 100+ people I might see them a bit...differentlyHave you ever made a mistake?::No. Are you a good tipper?::Sometimes too good, I'm afraidWhat is the most amount you've ever spent on a haircut?:: $80. Just the cut, this is why I dye it my myself.Have you ever had a crush on a teacher?::PshyeahHave you ever peed in public?::Public...bathrooms? Sure. Or like...on somebody's front lawn? No.What song do you want played at your funeral?::I don't plan on dying, so I'm afraid I haven't thought much about it.Would you tell your parents if you were gay?::They wouldn't care so probablyWhat would your last meal be before getting executed?::Uuh....god I don't know.Beatles or Stones?::I'm not particularly fond of either one.If you had to pick one person on earth to die, who would it be?::Ha dude that's not fair. There are too many.Beer, wine or hard liquor?::Hard liquor, duh...Do you have any phobias?::NeeeeedlesWhat are your plans for the future?::Get a better job. Live somewhere else. Not die.Do you walk around the house naked?::...no.If you were an animal what would you be?::Yeah I've always thought this was a pointless question.Hair color you like on someone you're dating?:: Whatever.Would you rather be blind or deaf?::Ugh. I love music but I wouldn't be able to draw if I were blind...or watch movies...Do you have any special talents?::Nope. I'm basically worthless.What do you do as soon as you walk in the house?::Shut the door?Do you like horror or comedy?::Both.Are you missing anyone?::Not really no.If you weren't straight, what person of the same sex would you do?:: Eww...Where do you want to live when you are old?::In an insanely large house with lots of people I can boss around.Who is the person you can count on the most?::Me?If you could date any celebrity past or present, who would it be?::Oh please...like Jordan said - there's a list.What did you dream last night?::I don't think I had time to. My dog kept barking and the cat kept making noise. So I kept having to get up and stuff.What is your favorite sport to watch?::Boxing maybe.Are you named after anyone?::Nope. But Steve is named after a retarded relative...What is your favorite alcoholic drink?::Eh tequila probablyNon alcoholic drink?::Passion Tea LemonadeHave you ever been in love?::I simply won't answer this truthfully. Don't worry about it.Do you sing in the shower?::No.Have you ever been arrested?::No?What is your favorite Holiday?::Christmas. Especially now that people give me money instead of toys or clothing or whatever.Would you ever get plastic surgery?::Yep.Have you ever caught a fish?::Yeah. Fishing is fun. It's just sad when the fish suffocate...

Ha I'm back and already there's more drama. Apparently while I was gone my mom put the house back on the market and she and Ron are buying another house in Ventura. ( not in the lower area, on the hill in the nice area) So that house is in escrow and my mom is trying to sell this one. She's an idiot. If it's worth almost 2 million now, think of how much the value will increase in 20 years. Jeez she's stupid...plus this way I don't get anything when she dies, only half the Ventura house since Ron's kids get the other half. Not to sound like a greedy bitch or anything...but my god. But surprisingly when I heard the news I was like ha...that doesn't necessarily mean all of this will happen. I mean if you know the history of my mom and Ron you know how many times they change their minds and like...they're...incredibly inconstant. So whatever we'll see what happens. I'm just hoping she wises up and keeps this property and gets the house in Ventura. I would hate to give up this party house. Sigh... Welcome back to the SCV.

Bored. I wonder how many entries I've started with that word? But then I guess I'm usually bored when I write entries for this thing...oh well. Dude my art professor is a crazy hypochondriac. It's hilarious. The man never ever eats fast food. Never. But last week he was hungry so he went through Jack in the Box and got a chicken sandwich and got so sick that he couldn't make it to school the next day (the cool thing about college classes is that if the teacher doesn't make it to the class, there's no sub, you just leave). But anyway he went to the hospital because he said he felt really sick but I can't help but wonder how much of it was psychological...so the doctor gave him antibiotics but he wouldn't take them. Sigh...so a few days ago I got into the car and I had just put on some peach lotion and he smelled it and he was like.........does what you're wearing have vanilla in it?? I'm allergic to vanilla...I think that has vanilla in it... Which it didn't. But he started coughing and sniffing anyway. So dramatic...jeez. So yeah. Methinks he be a bit of a hypochondriac. But in class now we're taking a picture and gridding it out and making it HUGE...like big enough to cover the wall. Bigger. So we all get to do 2 squares or the gridded picture. The only thing that has been driving me crazy is that some of the people kinda...suck? So they keep messing stuff up which I'm worried may ruin the whole picture...so you should have seen me today. I was running around the class showing people what they were doing wrong and trying to get the thing to look as good as possible. I actually did one guy's square for him practically, it was funny. I really must learn not to be so obsessed with making artwork look so perfect. But I don't think they mind if I'm doing everything for them... Uuuuuum I'm gonna try to get my license either this weekend or next week. Depends on what my mom is up to this weekend since I think I'm gonna be with her...or at her house, at least. But I'm dying to be able to just take off now that I have my car. I really like driving it, too. Gah. Shit. I had art homework and I forgot all my stuff in Joseph's car. Shiiiit. Ugh I'm so tired...I haven't been sleeping as much as I should lately. I keep having weird dreams...it's strange. I never really remembered my dreams before. Ha and the last few weekends I came back from being in the SCV and found that the little plastic ring had been taken out of my soda bottle cap and had been placed right next to the bottle on my nightstand. I was like Oh whatever...my grandmother probably just took the plastic thing out over the weekend while I was gone and left it there. Twice. So it didn't really phase me. But the other night I asked her about it and she was like......I haven't even really been in your room, and I definitely didn't do that... So I have no idea who would go into my room and take that out of the bottle cap. And leave it there. Right next to my bed. Twice. Creeeepy... The other day my grandmother also lost her TV remote and she tore her bedroom apart looking for it, took her bed apart practically and like...looked everywhere. So she finally gave up and later she went back into her room and it was sitting there in the middle of her floor. So yeah. Creepy house. Seriously. I'm fucking tired. And I have to get up early to go back to my house. And undoubtedly be bored out of my mind there. Ghey.

I'm pretty sure my entire family thinks they're in a soap opera. Or at least they act like it. I just had no idea the drama existed outside of my parents and their divorce, etc. Apparently my grandmother is no different. Worse maybe. She and all of her friends have been having some crazy-ass drama recently with one of their friends that is dying of heart failure and is being taken care of by some bitchy gay guy...and then there's my insane great-grandmother, and now I'm hearing that a few years ago the people nextdoor buried a body in their backyard, which is apparently still there...it's crazy. Madness. The people in Glendale are nuts. I have two weeks left. Pray for me.

God I keep thinking it's Sunday...but at least I'm close. Watch. In a month I'll completely lose track of what day it is. Summer is awesome. I went with my dad and Carmen to Camarillo today, but they didn't really have a lot. And it was extremely crowded. But I got some stuff...wasn't a total waste of time. So I'm back at my house now, bored again, but I'm watching more of The Godfather. I really do love that movie...or those movies...however you choose to look at it. Annnd...that's it.

Bored out of my mind. Just like I said I would be. Thank god there's a What Not To Wear marathon on today. Daytime TV blows. Last night was really...strange. I mean it's weird how what you do and think about during the day affects what you dream about later that night. Which usually isn't a bad thing, but last night apparently it was. Like Carmen was watching The 4400 in the other room last night and they were talking about some guy that committed suicide on the show and I could hear it from my room. And then yesterday I mentioned listening to Nine Inch Nails in art class, which of course reminds me of Theron...so those two things combined to make me dream that Theron had committed suicide or something? In the dream I was still going to a different school, which I think may have been Bowman but I dunno...and somehow I had heard that something had happened to him, but like...nobody would tell me what was going on and then in the dream for some reason I messaged Jordan on Myspace to try and find out what happened and I couldn't read the message she sent me...it was really odd. And the entire time I was like...freaking out...definitely the strangest dream I've had in a while. Then I woke up and it was reeeeally early in the morning and it was almost like one of those times when you have a dream where something bad happens to somebody and your first instinct is to go check if they're okay? But obviously I couldn't. But after a few minutes I was like okay...I was dreaming...I'm sure he's fine. It just really creeped me out. So yeah after that I couldn't sleep very well so I didn't get to sleep in as late as I had wanted and ended up getting up almost as early as I usually do to go to class. So I've been sitting here all day, watching What Not To Wear with Carmen's chihuahua chewing on my hand. Exciting. (Yeah sorry I couldn't LJ cut a lot of that, but I completely forgot the code.)

Boredom. I love/hate the fact that I stay up late every night now. I mean I would normally love it...but there's nothing to do. Bleh. Anyway. Class was fun today, or relatively so...if you consider sitting down and drawing for hours interesting...but the people usually have the music on a jazz station which can get extreeemely irritating after the first 45 minutes or so...and I think it was starting to annoy one of the guys in the class because he jumped up and changed the station to like...KROQ or something. I'm not sure what it was. But The Hand That Feeds came on and I was working across the room and all of a sudden like 6 people start singing along to it...it was funny. The jazz people had no idea what was going on. I thought Theron would have appreciated it. But my dad decided that it had been a while since he had seen me so he picked me up early from my grandmother's house to take me to this business meeting that was being held at that big restaurant The Odyssey that you can see on the hill from the freeway over by Sylmar kinda. Probably one of the most boring things I've been to in a while. Well maybe not so much boring as...bizarre. The speakers there were strange. And I had to dress nicely so I wore my heels which killed me...but I must say I looked very good, especially around all those nearing-middle-aged frumpy engineer women at the meeting. But it was boring. The creepy part was that I think that everybody thought I was like...my dad's colleague or something because when I sat down at one empty table all the younger guys in the room abandoned their tables and sat at ours. Yeah it was disturbing. Especially when they found out that I was only my dad's daughter. Oh well... And now I'm getting tired. Lameness. Oh and Jordan - remember that idiot Nick that used to work for my dad? The one that "tripped" over our poster? He was there. He likes large black women now. It was exceedingly entertaining. So now I'm at my dad's girlfriend's house in Monrovia. I'm gonna be soooo bored tomorrow while they're at work...nothing to do...

I'm bored. And I'm at school...probably not a good thing. BUT - last night was fun. I probably spent about 4 1/2 hours at the Galleria trying to find something to wear (where I saw Alan Rickman OR his twin OR just a really good impersonator) and found a skirt at Banana Republic and some shoes...I did the Mystic Tan with shade 2 this time, so I look reeeally tan. But it actually looks good. I had to buy new makeup, though, since I went from a shade 1 in foundation to a shade 10. Good lord... But it was fun. The whole gallery was set up and our artwork had been matted and everything...they put up more of my stuff than anyone else, though...not sure why. But I didn't mind. I got to see Kendric and his friend Taylor from the afternoon classes and Jen was there...and my teacher of course...and there was tons of food and I was dying because I was wearing 4" heels...again...but I got two certificates and two books of all the work the people in the classes did. Twas cool. But after this class I want to take Robin's other class at Hola or whatever...that would be fun. I just feel like I need a break from classes...I haven't really had a time in the last year when I wasn't in some sort of art program. Uuuum I should probably get to work now. The end.

Aaaaaaaah I just saw Alan Rickman at the Glendale Galleria...

It feels incredibly strange having nothing to...do...like this is the first time I've gotten home from school and like...I have no homework to finish, no artwork to do...although I guess I could do some if I really wanted to. But considering that's what I've been doing since 10 this morning...I don't think I will. Hmm. Really bored. Tomorrow night I have to go to the Ryman graduation thing. It seems a little idiotic for me to go considering I only went for like...one semester instead of the full three but whatever. I like my teachers there and I can see Kendric and Jen and them again. Coolness. Still bored...this better not be an into to how the rest of the summer will be. Actually no...I just need to get my license soon. Bleh.

Finally. I graduated. And now...I can sleep. Actually no I think my mom and I are going to Camarillo to go shopping because she needs clothes for her new job and I just...need clothes...so yeah. No sleep. You guys suck for going to Disneyland, btw...those of you that did go. Or rather Bowman sucks for not participating in Grad Night. Assholes. Oh well... I wanna go to Disneyland again soon. Although you guys are probably burned out on it right now... Ha but this morning after school I went with my mom to Mimi's Café to meet my grandmother and Gapper was there. She like...came out of nowhere. It was amazing. So now my mom and Ron want her and her husband to come over for dinner. Ok done. Going to Camarillo...

I..stayed up...so late...last night... Like...to the point that my brain would not function. My god. I finished almost everything. Just like 3 more chapters. That I have to do right now. But oh...my...god... And I have no idea how I'm supposed to get to school today at 9:50 to turn my stuff in to graduate. My mom took off to work and my dad is going to Chicago with Carmen. Ugh. But at the moment I'm so tired I don't even really care. It was one of those nights when you finally go to bed and as soon as you lay down the alarm goes off and it's time to get up again. That happened this morning and I just started laughing hysterically. My mom came in, I think she was concerned. But yeah I feel like lead...I cannot. get. up. And I think I ingested enough caffeine last night to keep me up for the rest of the month. Uuuuuuuuugh. Must......graduate..... *collapse* screw graduating. That's it. I'm waking Steve up. That bastard went to sleep early last night. And he's still sleeping. Heh. He will sleep no more... I suppose I'm one of those Misery Loves Company people. I need...coffeeeeee... Ha yeah. I should get up. I have a feeling I'm going to regret this like...when my brain starts functioning again. When the Red Bull in my veins turns back to blood.

Ha that's weird...I was just looking at my archives and Theron and I broke up exactly one year and three days ago. I thought it was longer than that...but yeah for some reason the weather today reminded me of something happening last year. I guess that was it. Hmm...

Hmm...tomorrow everyone graduates. Hopefully I will, too. I have to stay up and finish my classes...probably all night. But that's great! I'm prepared... I wonder if Ron could get me a ticket for grad night for Disneyland even though my school isn't going...I mean he can get me one any other time, why not now? That would be rather cool. I only wish I could go to the actual graduation ceremony, too bad I'm missing out on that. I wonder what they did with my tickets when I transferred...oh well. Lameness. I got sunburned today at school because we had to draw a tree outside and I was out in the same spot in the sun for probably about 5 hours. So yeah I started to burn a little. Thank god I don't have my dad's genes for my skin...he gets all red even if he's outside for like...an hour. But hopefully it will turn into a tan by tomorrow. It just sucks because I just did the mystic tan on Monday...grr...and now I have lines. Blech. Uuuuh oh yeah. Homework. Or no graduation. End.