*sigh* devestation is an understatement.... jesus christ the world sucks and i swear the universe has some serious misunderstood karma against me....what did i do to deserve this hell.... life sucks then you die. tis my new philosophy. optimistic eh? i just wish things could get better, but they never will, people won't allow them to be....i need alcohol and sleeping pills. and lots of it....anyone hiding a stash better bring it forth NOW. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- that was my away message. truthful. i swear to god i don't know what's happening....i'm just watching my entire world crumble before my eyes and i can't take it anymore.. let the death fall on me and i shall embrace it happily. that shall be a line in a new poEM i plan to write...dunno if it's tonight or not. but when all this comes to me and fits. but me likes, might change the word happily but for now it's a simple perfect rhyme. i cannot explain the creator of my destruction and ultamite end that is soon to be....just know that this is only the beginning of the end. i know it's not even the worst of it. or maybe this was the worst but it's still gonna be shitty along the way. no matter what i'm hurt. may i fall now? or shall it be once hope has risen above my head and i see happiness once again, yes, that will be the moment i fall the farthest. so as to hurt me more. kill me more. love me never again....when did my world come to such a bitter end? woot poetray and i'm not even tryin. must make mental notes of this she-it. yes it is the end of the world. of my world. and when my world crumbles i fall into an abyss of hell and pain and suffering and there i shall stay till my peace. my death. my sanctuary....