I am very tickled pink :) Not really. I think I've made my decision. Guy b. I missed him so much today when I wasn't in school and coudlnt' talk to him. or even look at him. It was kind of like when he apologized for all the stuff that happened last year. And how he didn't really expect me to understand or forgive him. He just wanted to try and make it better, like by some strange stroke of luck I'd totally understand and everything would fall back into place. Except its weird, because I did understand. And it did fall back into place. Like me spending 2 hours on the phone with him telling him how to make spaghetti. I loved that night. Or at Carly's sweet 16 me spending the whole night with him. When Carly and I went inside he came with us and he sat down on the couch next to me. Carly climbed on us and layed across both our laps. He layed his head on my shoulder while we watched a movie. He was still going out with HER. I really wanted to get to one of his races this summer but I coudlnt' because of work. His last race of the season isn't this weekend but the weekend after it in Delaware. Maybe I can talk Aunt Lori into taking me... so I can spend a whole weekend with him. Isn't this pathetic? The kid doesn't even know if he's going to pick me when he's ready for a girlfriend but I'm spilling my heart into this diary for everybody to read. I must be mental. I don't even care though, because its how I feel. You know that feeling right when you start to fall for somebody and you try with everything you have to catch yourself 'cause you know you're just going to get hurt eventually? Thats where I am right now. He better catch me before I hit the bottom.