I'm trying to see the Brightside of all of this. I think that the truth is that there is none. Maybe this is what you want to hear: I don't care about him. He's a total bastard, and he never did anything but treat me like dirt. So if you think i'm "obsessing" over him, I'm not. He's not worth anything to me. Its not like he ever noticed me anyways, I'm a short and ugly and... I can't even finish this. The point is I DON'T CARE! I guess everybody can kind of tell how my day was from that. Hell. Again, last day before Christmas Break and I think I'm probably the only person in the school who can be so depressed. I just keep thinking of all the reasons why Christmas is going to be terrible this year. If one more thing changes from normal, I'm going to cry. Michelle, on the phone tonight I wanted to tell you so bad about all of this. I just didn't want to cry, or sound so pathetic. All I do is complain to you, and I'm sorry... you don't need to hear it all the time. I watched A Cinderella Story again tonight. I started crying again at the "I'll Be" part. I'm not sure why I cry, but I just do. ...I wasn't even going to update this thing. I was just going to stop writing. I guess I figured that that would show people that they "won" though. That they messed with my brain and actually did make me feel like shit. I know they already know that though. So, Merry Christmas everybody, if I don't get to write. I hope yours is better than mine is going to be.