I've debated for like an hour on whether or not to write this entry. Party because I'm going to start crying and partly because I'm going to get so mad I'm going to shake. This weekend was so good until last night. The stupid ferret started talking to me and I like told him off, because I just cannot stand him. THEN he tells me that he talked to John. AND told him all of this shit. I died. Seriously, talk about wanting to like RUIN Michelle's life. So I talked to John. And I explained everything. It took forever, but I think he finally sees how it is and what went down. I was like crying by the end of the night I hated it so much. John understood though. I was so happy about that. Then I read Stefania's diary. I cried more. I have no idea what I ever did to her but apperantly she hates me. So she got on and started talking to me all happy. I just started talking and wanted to make things better. She bit my head off, told me I was a bitch, and that I was like psycho for regretting some things and for "living in the past" Garrett was the one who brought up the past with you help. TELLING HIM MICHELLE STILL LIKED JOHN. WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM? -sorry, just a little angry there I cried myself to sleep... and I was so close to doing something I had only done once before, but I didn't. They're not worth that... So this morning I had to tell Michelle everything. She looked like she was going to cry, and I started crying. It was awful, probably the worst day this year. I totally ignored Stefania today, i didn't know what else to do. And I tried to ignore Garrett, which I thought was going to be easy. He sat down right next to me at lunch. I died. He NEVER sits at our table. I thought I was going to cry. It was awful I like smooshed up against Jeremy to get as far away from him as possible. The rest of the day just sucked. So there you go. Michelle's like being stalked by some psychopath thats trying to ruin her life and one of my good friends suddenly hates me for no reason. I thought everything was better. [Edit: None of this is coming out, its all the truth, and what really happened.]