Listening to: Matchbook Romance - Playing for Keeps
Feeling: aggressive
Well.
Tonight has sucked royally.
First off after I wrote my first entry, I went to bed. At like 5:30 my dad wakes me up for no reason. I had a heartattack. I was so pissed off.
Then my lil jock retard sister announces she wants an element hoodie. When I ask her why because she doesn't skate, she tells me neither do I. She's lucky her jaw is intact.
So I get on AIM to vent to Michelle and Garretts like harassing her. So I started trying to talk to him. And then he trash talked me. And I snapped. Dude, do not bash my best friend, and then blame your problems on her.. and then start talking crap about me. It will not go over well.
Then I found ERin's diary. I love her! and I found out she cuts... but I just told her I loved her. And we've been talking ever since. I missed that girl terribly.
So I was so mad before my stomach hurt. I told Michelle it was pain in my spleen. And we have this big inside joke about how we're joined at the spleen. so she's like "hey all spleen decisions have to be passed through me too"
It was like the only part of the night that made me laugh.
Its better now though :)
Life is good again :p for once!
in a strange way
He told me he liked me. And he didnt.
I had to force it out of him.
And then he got a girlfriend 4 days later.
I bawled. I didnt talk to him for two months.
He was trying to make it up to me by taking me to homecoming.
He was trying to be my friend again.
I think the thing that sucked the most was I got my heart broken and then insulted by people I dont know because of it...
Because Max did the same exact thing he did.
Max is still doing the same exact thing he did...
I dont want to fight with anyone.
I dont want anyone to hate me before they even know me just because my friends can be assholes...
They dont realize that it causes them more pain...
Or that they're going to get busted haha.
They really are.
They're just confusing as hell if you start to think of them as more than that.
It's hard not to know.
I dont know.
They're a confusing bunch.
I've been friends with them for a year and been in love with three of them already.
And each time it didnt work out haha.
...I'm thinking about venturing out of the circle. I caught the drift eventually ha
I'm sitting with Dan though.
And hes going out with Marissa.
So nothing bad will go down between us haha.
Amandas going to learn though too so I won't be all alone.
And if I dont like snowboarding Emilie said she'd teach me to skiblade.
So hopefully I'll find something. :)
I'm glad things are going a bit better for you!
It's great that you're defending your best friend, and that you're talking to your friend who cuts.
Hoping things keep getting better for you,
Stella