I'm eating peanut butter cup icecream. The love of my life. anyways this week sucked SO bad. Lets re-cap. Tuesday - ignored. Wedensday - acknowledged Thursday - acknowldged Friday - totally ignored AND watched him with his ex. Well, thats just FUCKING great isn't it? I seriously have no idea what to do. Okay, Thursday night, which was last night... right? Anyways I had a heart attack. 'cause Cody started talking to me and he apoligized and thanked me.... I thought I was gonna die or something, like Michelle said, its like the sign of the apocalypse or something :p and then Stefania gave me a heart attack today before first period. OMG that shocked me. And he made me feel like shit. So before first period I had a massive head ache. Whatever. I made mom take me to Flynn's to get icecream 'cause its the best comfort food ever. So now I'm just waiting for Chelle to get on aol. I was reading one of my back private entries and the last line was "I really only want somebody who actually cares about me. Seriously is that so much to ask for?" That is so what I feel like right now. Edit {What hurts the worst about the whole thing is that he tells me he cares. And in the past months I thought that he REALLY REALLY did. Now, I have no idea...}